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a Brand New Year
11:36AM on January 01, 2012


Congradulations! we all are lucky enough to see another year. Some have not been so fortunate. So as we say goodbye to the old year and hopefully old habits that are bad for us i wanted to write this little blog for my buddies and fans.

I have been asked what resolutions i have for 2012 and so i am going to tell you. None. i try not to make them. what i try to do is take stock of what i am thankful for and what may need a lil more work on in the comming year. For me that is my family and my friends. in real life i keep this circle very small. just a handful of true friends and my closest family members. They are always there for me when my need is greatest. And when they can't help to ease my burdens they at least help sooth my pain. I am greatful for the love I have in my life now and for however long it may stay in my life. it is a blessing to be loved. and to give that love back.

I am also greatful to my fan base here at rude and on the internet in general. whenever i am feeling down about myself or my life's situation i can come here and leave the worry for a little while. My fans tell me i am sexy and beautiful even when i don't feel like i am. they leave me these wonderful comments and constantly pay attention to what i do. They also give me tangible gifts to keep my spirts up and help me along the road. For me this is a creative outlet as well as a way to supliment my income. So for them to recognize all that goes into my photos and cam work is the reason i will keep doing it. to see how much my perv fans trully did miss me while i was gone was actually quite shocking. I love you all, pervs. trully.

I am also greatful that i don't live in parts of the world torn apart by famine, desease and war. we should all have this on our new year's resolution. Community is how people survive hard times. Even if your unemployed right now, go volunteer at a charity. It may not pay you but can be the start of something far more rewarding. Your money wont ever go as far as your time will, darlings. It will help you grow as a person too. I hope that in 2012 we can see wars end, children be fed and cared for, and an end to preventable deseases that decimate whole countries. It is the wish i wish every christmas and every year. No more wars, no more hungry lonely sick people and a way for families to stay together always.
so from me straight to you: HAPPY NEW YEAR. may it bring with it the joy that all people should have as a god given right. Stay safe this new year and be happy. it's the only thing no one can take from you.

love

~Sasha~

The Fam Reunion
9:38AM on August 24, 2010

Well I spent the weekend with my family and it's something i don't ussually share with RUDE but i do wish to share some observations with you.

When i was growing up, my fam and I went camping every summer, all summer. I have 4 aunts and 1 uncle from my grandparents. So it was all of us. I come from a rather large extended family. I grew up with 28 or so cousins to attend my birthday parties, to be my constant playmates and friends. I grew up with not one set of parents but with a village full of these aunts and uncles who would have did the same as my folks. And so many diffrent oppinions. I grew up with in this loving if disfunctional cacoon of people. The whole time i was growing into to women you know and more; these people helped to guide me. They shaped me. The comforted me when i was sick, scared, and hurting. And even when i am surround now with people i feel alone only because it is not them. I knew our lives would change. That we would all grow apart and move on to our "real" lives. But even if it's just for a weekend or wedding, we can all get together the same. We fall into these comfortable rythms of living and loving together. who likes who. who doesn't. who's snobby or spoiled. who does too many drugs or drinks too much. Whatever. In the larger scope we don't care. We are family and we love them. We welcome them whomever they are or their faults. I can't imagine not having had that acceptance my whole life. These people will  love me no matter what the mistakes i make are. even if they never say another word to me. On the day that my soul leaves this place they will shed a tear, toss a drink back and say remember when????

And then there came our kids... I realized this weekend that our kids aren't having the same close nit familarity because we lead such busy lives. but with in their clicks of cousins they do. it has changed but i saw it. that same confidence that we had growing up because we knew we had family to call. And i saw those same bonds and memories being given to this the new generation. It was a wonder and i finally understood why this modern loss of the american community feeling is so hard to take. No child should feel alone or adrift in the ocean of the world.

I never felt alone in my life less it was an alone i created. I always knew that one phone call, one bus trip would put me within touching distance to someone through bond of blood would know me. would love me and accept me. I am greatful for the confidence that this has given to my life. I am greatful that however crazy mine may be that in the end i will never be forgotten or lost or lonely because i am part of a family. Nor will my kids.