fake tits and gastric bands
5:37AM on September 12, 2008

im feeling mega depressed

ive felt for a long long time that im out of per portion, i have small tits and a big stomach

im always being asked when my baby is due because all the fat is at the front like im pregnant

so as i was starting to get concerned about my weight i went to the docs, she says i have the symptoms for poly systic ovaries, i have loads of blood tests they all come back fine

last week i have a ultra sound (nearly pissed myself coz u have to drink 2pints of water then they push the little scanner thing on ya bladder)

rung up for the results today and they are normal, which really upset me ... i seriously thought that because of how my stomach is, the fact my periods are all over the place and i have (DONT LAUGH) black hairs round my nipples that i had poly systic ovaries and no basically i dont and it means im fat because of something ive done.

you know they class me as being obesse, im 5ft 3 and i weigh nearly 14 stone i think thats over 180lb

i know im never gonna be some skinny mini im not built for that.

i keep thinking about getting a boob job .... i dont want massive tits just going up one size would be nice so i can get bras and dresses that fit

at the moment they are a 40A (i think that american sizes are one cup size bigger so i think that would be 40B in the states)

but then men dont like fake tits and i dont want to look fucking stupid, coz some fake tits look awful

now ive started thinking perhaps a gastric band would be better

i need something, i know people are gonna say well you could on a diet, you could exercise but i dont think for me thats the solution

i dont eat breakfast if i do its a bowl of speical k
i have a meal at work which is meant to be healthy because thats what the kids at work get a healthy meal and i have the same

dinner times tend to be various things but ive stopped eating mcdonalds and eat alot of chicken

and evenings ive stopped with chocolate and im having strawberry laces instead

exercise well i try and do my dance mat once a day, and im walking/running around and on my feet for a hour and half at work

i give up i cant class myself as a bbw coz i dont have big tits and i cant class myself as normal becuase my body is big ... perhpas im in a catagory of my own

i guess im asking peoples opnions on what my next step could be

if i have either operation im gonna have to have it done on the nhs unless theres some very very kind person out here who wants to help rogue out.

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