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11:04PM on May 15, 2009

Just thought I would write a quick blog to let you know what bare and I have been up to lately.
We have been busy from bare getting a new job, myself being away for the job, dreading the kids getting out of school :(, my partial hystrocutmy, and losing my grandpa.

I lost my grandpa in April and I was able to be at his bed side when he took his last breath. It was so hard but I am SOOOOO glad my sister and I decided to stay down there one more night as both of us didn't think he would make it much longer. See he was told he had cancer last June and had part of his lung removed. Well in December he was told that there was another tumor in his other lung this time. On April 19 he had fell and pushed his life alert. I would strongly recommend anyone that has an elderly family member to get life alert as it helped us know when my grandpa had fallen. Well he was taken to the hospital by ambulance and had a CAT scan done to see if he had a stroke or not. Well once the doctor looked at the scan they discovered that the cancer had spread threw his whole body and into his brain. The tumor that was in his lung had doubled in size from the original one that was golf ball size, and also had 2 to 3 tumors on his brain. The dr. informed the family that he would not be going home this time. Well we all had been preparing ourselves for this BUT like everyone knows it is still hard when you lose a family member. Well sexme was here on this Sunday that I found out he was transported to the hospital and that it didn't look good. After she left my mom called me back and informed us again that it didn't look like grandpa might not make it threw the night. So at 8:30 pm I took off to where my sister lives and we headed down to the hospital. The town is like 3 hours from where my sister lives so we got down there about 11:45 that night. When we got there we both went in and told grandpa that we were there and that everything will be ok. We then spent the whole night in the hospital my sister stayed in his room with my mom and aunt. I was in the family room with my cousins that also went to the hospital. I could not bring myself to seeing grandpa the way he was laying in the bed so lifeless :( after about 2 to 3 hours of half ass sleep i was able to go into his room and spend sometime with him. Now it was Monday and I spent a lot of time sitting beisde him talking to him. He was able to hear us and as far as we know he was able to see us also as he was moving his eyes and looking at us.  Later that morning another cousin was able to get there and spend time with him also. My cousins left later on Monday so leaving myself, my sister, my mom, my aunt, and my uncles at the hospital with grandpa. Shortly before the kids had to go to bed I called and talked to bare for a little bit. As I was talking to bare I noticed that my grandpa was trying to say something to me. So I asked bare to put each of the kids on the phone so they could say I love you and bye to great grandpa. See he wasn't able to speak as we think one of the tumors had screwed up his speech. So he was mainly just mummbling and trying his hardest to talk to us. He was probably thinking he was talking to us but we just couldn't understand. It was finally about 10:30 or so Monday night now and I laid down on the airmattress that the hospital had put in his room for the family to be able to lay down on. Once the nurses stopped coming into his room and everyone was quiet then I was able to sleep alittle bit more. This time I got MAYBE 5 hours that I needed. Then Tuesday morning the 21st came and my uncle got back to the hospital after he went to grandpa's house to sleep the doctor came in. When the doctor was in his room he informed us that it wasn't going to be much longer. Then my mom and I stepped out of his room for about 15 to 20 minutes when my sister came running to where we were saying that we needed to get back to my grandpa's room. My mom and my sister took off and I was coming behind a little ways as I had to put something up. So I took off running to my grandpa's room as he laid there his heart had did the last beat.  Before this happened we all just kept telling him that it was ok to go be with grandma and his infant son. After his last breath of air that was still in his body we all said to tell grandma and his infant son hi for all of us and that we would see them all again sometime. Then we all gathered around grandpa holding eachothers hands and said the Lord's Prayer.

When we all left the hospital we went to my grandpa's house and my aunt, mom, and uncle all went and did the furneral stuff and we were able to get on the road then. I then on Tuesday night finally got home at 10:00 so it was a long 2 days for me.

Now I don't want anyone to feel that I am trying to get sympathy since this did happen about a month ago. I thought I would just get my feelings out as I have had them all building up inside of me.

Now for bare, while I was at my schooling in March he found himself another job. And as McP says he is Farmer Bare now as he don't get home until after dark sometimes but is actually getting home before midnight unlike the job before. He is enjoying this job alot as it is something that the bare likes to do and that is dealing with farming.


Well I hope we can start getting back to our normal life before to much longer and have a few shows here and there. We will have to wait and see when it gets to the point of getting kids in bed and everything so we don't have to worry about them coming in. The shows may just be chat shows but you never know what will happen with our shows as we usually end up having them nudity so we can do whatever. I am going to be trying to have a few shows here and there but will probably be just chat shows but never know. So Happy Perving to everyone and hope to see you all around sometime.

Kisses, lickes, hugs, and pounces from you Husker MILF hotnbothered

Weekly show
12:01AM on July 29, 2008

Just thought I would let you all know that I might be excited for my show on Sunday but I might also be tired. We have a long week ahead of us with the family. I really would like people to let me know what you think I should do for my shows. I am starting to run out of ideas for the different shows.  So please help me out and give me some ideas of what i should do.

I hope everyone can make it to my weekly shows. We tend to have fun even if I don't play. Like on the 27th of July it was just a chat show but we had our laughs. Thanks to my loving husband that allows me to keep doing them.

I look forward to seeing what all you guys can think of what I should do for shows.

kisses and hugs to everyone.
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Ideas for a toon
10:51PM on May 17, 2008

Hey all I am needing some ideas for a toon for myself. If you all have any ideas please post a comment or rude mail me with the ideas. The one I am thinking about doing is like a cowgirl with a black cowboy hat and a black nightie but don't know how i should stand or sit in the toon. Please help me out on this fellow rude members.

Thanks for your help in advance yall,
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