My Blog :: Oh just rambles from my brain.

Make me fucking famous!
4:05PM on February 24, 2009

Ok so we all know that I work damn hard to promote myself and my site online right? Well the fact of the matter is there are millions of girls online doing this everyday. I like to think I am special because I have a ton of REAL talents that I use and have used to get where I am.

I have been blogging for quite some time before I even introduced my first photo on my blog showing what I really look like. I have some solid good looks but the fact of the matter is that to become well known you need good little boys and girls working for you to get you to the top.

This is where I decided to work on a project that I need all of you to help me with.

You can dedicate your life to helping or you can just throw in a little work in your spare time to help me become the big bright shining star that you all know me to be:)

There are tons of ways to help promote me and my site:
1. Make axxxxxxx, or other random social networking site group/fan club for me.
2. Find various contests around the internet and abroad for me to enter in for modeling, dancing, writing or any other skill that I may have and suggest them to me:xxxxxxxxxxx
3. Use my images that I post in various places like on my blogs orxxxxx to promote me by adding them to your xxxxx or other social networking profiles, blogs, forums, vlog, podcast or whatever... Just make sure you include a link to my site within your post!
4. Word of mouth goes a long way! If you can get 5 people to join my site within a month and have them email me atxxxxxxxxxx and say that you recommended them, then I will award you yourself with a free month to my site.

If you send me 20 members within a month I will award you with a 4 month pass to xxxxxxxxxxxx

50 members within a month you get 6 months access to xxxxxxxx

or 100 or more within a month and I will give you a full year pass! Anything beyond that and we can discuss your reward.

5. Don't have the time but have money to dedicate to making my site better or forwarding my online skills and knowledge?

The buy me anything off of this list:
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

This is a list for my site. It contains software, books, hardware and other things that would help me become more adept at the technical work I do as well as help me offer YOU more in my online work.

6. Find me jobs that involve me modeling, writing a guest coloum, gogo dancing or whatever in my area or in yours if you find that I am visiting sometimes soon. Suggest me as a possible candidate for these types of jobs to friends you know in real life as well as offline.

7. Suggest other ways to me that will help me become more of a household name! I am all ears and I am willing to discuss what you will earn from me, whether you have a affinity for personalized photos, free passes to my site or even other even kinkier surprises such as my sihned undies or shoes!

Let's work together!
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let's keep the party polite
10:15PM on June 03, 2008

JUST WHEN I GET EVERYTHING FUCKING UP AND RUNNING!!!!!!

My dog pees on the damn cable modem. So it didn’t short out or anything it actually still works but it’s like reset or something so I need the tech guy to come out and fix it. So I had to freaking go out to a pay phone to call and get an appointment set up for them to come and fix it. (My old phone was in my ex-boyfriend’s name and my grandma has the phone in my name using the same company I wasn’t able to just transfer the old line to my new place… BREATHE JESSICA.)

ANYWAYS, they can’t come and do anything about it until fucking Friday and I know to most people this wouldn’t be a big deal but I am really frustrated because well…
A. I work off of the damn internet, I need the internet to update my site and well as do cam shows and such… My lively-hood pretty much revolves around the internet.
B. I had planned to start a planned schedule this week of updates, shows and marketing strategies that I had been working on for a while now and was finally ready to put it into action. This is a HUGE let down since I was SO excited to finally set these set of ideas in motion and get the ball rolling.
C. Since I don’t have a phone the internet has been my only way of contacting the outside world, so to keep up with my updates and crap I am going to have to go down to the damned coffee shop, even to post this blog and I HATE being in the public during the day without a chilled alcoholic buffer.

SIGH. So yeah the good news about this is that I finally decided to get a phone because I can’t deal with not having a connection with people if something like this happens again. They will be here to install the phone next Tuesday and I already have the number that I will be having so I will email that out to everyone that NEEDS to have it sooner or later here. I might wait until I get the internet again at home to do that. The less I have to do out in the public the better.

Something I have been noticing for like the last couple of months is my growing insatiable lust for little boys. By “little” I mean 16-19 years old. I just want to ravish a little boy and totally brutalize them. I know I’m sick, but at least over 16 is somewhat legal. Bah, I’m just horny in general lately for some reason. My sex drive is moving on up with the temperature and damn it I need an outlet. Maybe I am in heat? Literally?

I am watching TV and there is something on about speed dating. I think the idea of speed dating is hilarious. I would almost go to one of those things just to see how pitiful it is. I’d probably end up meeting my creepy soul mate that way or something weird though and I can’t risk all of that. Hahaha. I make myself laugh.

I totally need a nap but I need to go snag some wifi so I can let everyone know what’s going on with me and my shitty internet situation. This morning I had to get up early to go and cash checks and pay bills as well as pick up my adderal prescription. Of course the were out of my medicine where I went to pick it up so I have to go without until Thursday, which will lead to me to being even more tired. So yeah this week is off to a good start.

Just kidding I am really not that negative, but I am at least disappointed I couldn’t start my weekly schedule I wanted to attack this week, but with the internet being down I really hope it will inspire me to get my room more completely set up with the posters and wall stickers and such. Also I got The Vivid Alt movie The Doll Underground today and I am excited about that. If you want to watch it with me and know where I live (and we are actually friends in real life) don’t hesitate to stop by and help entertain me!

Also I have decided to cultivate a fake gay male profile online and set up profiles on different social networking sites to see what it’s like to be a young gay male. I plan on stealing photos from a young male that I will find on mydeathspace so it will be someone that honestly won’t care that I am using his photos because well he will be dead. I think that is the best option honestly but I am sure someone will freak out and say how morbid that is. It’s almost a tribute though since the person will live on through there photo’s while I use them to see what it’s like to be a guy. I want to see how gay males communicate with each other online. I’m just curious.