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So much for a good start.....
11:11PM on January 03, 2011

Once again a crisis has turned my life upside down. Last March i lost my Nanaw, a strong support in my life. Now, I am facing losing my Grandfather. He, along with my other grandparents, pushed me to my limits to be the best i could be. It is because of him that I have started writing as I do (not only erotica but everyday life poetry as well). The doctors have given him to the end of this month to early February.

Needless to say I am devastated and it showed in my house cams last night. So to those who may have been in-house and saw my meltdown I apologize. I usually control my emotions much better than that, but was something I couldn't hide this time.


I don't bring this up for pity, but because i know that each of you as my friends and family in some cases will say a quick prayer for my family and give me an ear if I need to talk. So many of you have always done that and it is greatly appreciated.

Once I receive the news that my Grandfather has passed, I will be gone a few days for the funeral and travel to and from North Carolina. Cams may or may not be up depending on whether hubby goes with me or remains home due to work. As the month goes on I will try to keep you updated so as not to alarm those of you who are closest to me.



As always lots of Sweet kisses!

When Life Hits the Hardest
9:45PM on April 24, 2008

I've been reading and chatting alot here lately and have noticed some very disturbing situations. I guess the most disturbing is how prevalent certain acts of violence are here on RUDE. Whether it's self-inflicted or your a victim...it's horrifying. I knew violent crimes were on the rise, it's hard to miss, but seeing and hearing first hand from people who lived it brings it all home.

Many still consider me yooung, which I won't argue seeing as I am 25 yrs old, but I have seen and lived through alot. I guess in a sense I have come to understand why some of our members enjoy certain types of fantasies, or fetish. I guess, for them, it's a form of therapy to deal with issues in their pasts and present lives.

Although I can relate to my fellows as far as the circumstances, I find it hard to relate to their "therapy". I'm not judging or trying to criticize. Really I'm just rambling trying to sort it out in my head. I just know for certain that there are people on RUDE that truly care about those they talk to/with here. For that alone, I tip my hat to them. It may not seem like much, but just listening to someone talk about their problems is a great help. Trying to fix something usually backfires, but with what I have read/seen the past two or three days....the genuine concern for one another, love of friends, or just honest people reaching out a helping hand to someone in need...I am proud to be a member of RUDE and grateful to all who have supported me and others in their time of need.

Lots of love to my RUDE family!