I like trying to be as real as needed, and we all need to understand life is an Experience, Right!
9:37AM on September 04, 2010
by dburger
26-30 year old man
A Story From A Group I Know That It Will Work Out In the End
Life is 100% relative to your situation. Your life is built on your expectation. What you expect from a situation will determine whether or not you will be let down or amazed. For instance, if youre going see a movie and someone tells you its a great movie, and all you hear about it is how good it is. You go to see it and it doesnt live up to your expectations. Well, your then a little let down even if the movie was pretty good. Every aspect of life is like that.
If youre going through a tough or bad situation it feels so much better when things get better. The tougher or harder the situation the better it feels later. I myself have gone through it time and time again, and I dont expect it to stop. I just live for the good times and survive through the bad times. For me things are a little more extreme mainly because I am bipolar. So, the good times are really good and the bad times are tough.
Early in my life I went through a tough situation. In middle school, I went through a public school hell. I wrote a piece on it, but it made my private high school experience so much sweeter. The middle school I went to was about ninety percent black and high school I went to was about ninety percent white. I went from being picked on every day to being voted class favorite. But all those wonderful high school years set me up for a big letdown later on.
After high school, I went on to college to chase my dream. Things were great for about a year or so. Then my long time high school sweetheart broke up with me. Well I stayed in college from then on I struggled. I failed a Calculus class and a few others along the way. But, what kept me motivated was the fact that no one expected me to graduate college. Again expectations comes into play, I pushed on an graduated college. It felt unbelievable to graduate, but in my mind I thought graduating college would fix all my problem. By that time, I had started dating a girl that was great, smart, pretty, going to be a doctor. The problem was that I didnt love her. In my mind I thought me being an Engineer and her being a Doctor, we would make a boat load of money and be perfectly happy. I found out the hard way that money does mean anything.
Once again expectations come into play, I started working as an Engineer in a really nice office thinking this is going to be great. I so realized that I hated working in the office. I found myself hating my job and dating a girl that I didnt want to marry. So what happened, I had a mental break down went into a mental hospital for a week. I came out a different person. A few weeks later I broke up with my girlfriend and quit my job.
Its been over four years since I broke up with her and about the same since Ive worked as an Engineer. Now, Im almost thirty and Im single. I can honestly say that Im just about as happy now as Ive ever been. Yea its hard watching all my friends getting married and having kids. And yea I feel a little jaded because Im not sure if I want to bring another girl into my life. Im a little worried about the future.
To everyone out there that are in bad situations, just make it through and know that better days are coming. No matter what tomorrow is a new day and things somehow someway work themselves out in the end.
Posted on August 28th, 2010 at 5:08AM
I'm Can So Relate! AMEN!
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