Some Fans & Freinds have been asking me about, how I do it all, hang in here, life and all
11:21PM on February 23, 2010

 I have learned alot in the past two years and again this is not anything agaisnt Anyone or about Them! This has to do with the way I feel and see things, okay people! LOL!!!

But at 43 Im no dummie and I have found it's better that I do alot of my shit own my on. You must be on point when asking for help with things  out of people. What Im finding is that noone is having fun, with what they love, or do they, well I do. and sometimes I even get drunk and fall down, but Im a work in proccess, Lol! Let's be real don't you sometimes, Smoke and/or drink. And u may do that also to try and calm down when people have pissed you off, right?  Well I do drink at times that is especailly when stressed or shy about something, lol! yes SaXXX gets shy too, Lol!

I love adult entertainment but you can pick up some pretty bad habits along your way, and I did, and It seems that I may have had to curse one to two people out, in my tiraits,( But it was warranted) they was asking for it......... Cause I don't Fuck over nobody, Im just a Hurt but Strong Soul and I let noone come at me wrong! Im out here on my own, I will protect my esteem and anything else I feel if you handle me wrong!!! So everyone u know how that goes. But never have I ever sat out to bad mouth or hurt anyone in anyway. So peps im being real honest here in public veiwing, for all to see, (forgive me about my That One Sin at times I do Over Endulge) I'm working hard at not doing that, I will overcome it and just know God is not finished with any of us, and that includes me. (this is not an EXCUSE for me doing this, This is just what it is)

Just A Note about How I am and How it works for me:

Im crazy fun like that and some just don't get me, my soul is in everything I do , and some days are great and then others aren't so great,( bills, kids, grands, Depression, hangovers) lol!!! I just choose not to be so freakin uptight as some people in the industry Im just a naturally Happy Person and alot of people can't deal with that so. I totally understand.

But I get the jobs done! I mean Im a pro at what I do best and that's fucking sucking, flaunting, hosting,and just making whom ever im entertaining feel comfortable around me, Im a perfect Party Girl, I know my place, the hat I wear. But others may think I should be stuck up and hard like these other girls with all the, im so professional and business like, But you can't always be on that tip in entertainer other, Fans don't come to hear you go on about how you get paid and all that, they come to you to be ENTERTAIN and yet noones having and/or enjoying the footage they are putting out. So even though I don't know much about being all stuck up, I do know how to handle my biz without throwing all that type of EGO around. I do know great bit about pleasure and what people want to feel , and They want to enjoy what they watch! and the girls that work in the industry should want to feel good when working with anyone, and I just find that it's not always the case when working with other so called pro individauls. Yes it is a business but it is a business that is about bringing people PLEASURE, not your Hostilties and Turned Up Faces. Dam You work hard at the gym, keeping up appreances, joggling things the least people you work around and with, I feel should be a lil caring or concern about how you feel today, Like for example: Just A producer saying "How r you feeling today before we shoot" Make a world of a difference to a performer. I guess that's why so many talents come to me to get started and or give me work, Im a loving person, I care. And in return for me being that way I have such an array of Fans and Friends that knows That. So what One or even two of  you harden people don't really hurt my STATUS at all. I have been around for a long time over 23 yrs.   

Yeah I know it's about the money too, but don't you want to enjoy what you are doing so that others can also? especailly your veiwers enjoy it too. So Im just giving my fans and freinds what they want and I get to enjoy it to while getting my ends met. I don't want to rule the industry I just want to get my share and enjoy it while im here. So I stand alone, but not distroyed by anyone or thing.

Im Just SaXXX, Love me or Leave me to do me. 

 But know I have much charm, you just gotta love me, I mean no Harm. Just working all things out, it takes time people. Real changes in a persons make up doesn't happen over night and all we can do is be.

This has been brought to you by, the Fans and friends That really care about me, and my well being. I really appreciate it, and no im doing my very best at it.

Muaw! your Favorite Gal Pal SaXXX