a Dl bruh
8:03PM on May 25, 2010
I HAD CAME ACROSS THIS BLOG BOUT 2 MONTHS AGO AND EMAILED THE GUY WHO POSTED IT N ASKED IF I COULD C/P IT ON MY BLOG N TALK ABOUT IT WITH OTHER RUDE PEEPS. DUDE NEVA RESPONDED SO I FIGURE HE DON'T DO RUDE NO MO. WHEN I FIRST SAW DIS SHIT I WAS KINDA INTRIGUED BY IT. 4 THOSE OF Y'ALL WHO NEVA SAW/READ IT. CHECK IT OUT ITS BY VINNIEXXX
posted by vinnieXXX
I'm a 24 year old black male that has been cheated and screwed over by alot of different women most of my life. And just the beginning of this year, i started having sex with men for the sole reason that i cannot seem to attract a woman that wants to be with me or have sex with me.
I am not an attractive man as you can see why i do not have a picture posted on my page. i have an out of shape body and i still live at home. all through elementary middle and high school, girls along with the guys would always make fun of me talk down to me call me all kinds of names. I never had a real girlfriend. Girls would pretend to like me either as a joke or because they felt sorry for me. Again this has been most of my life. I had at least 1 or 2 girlfriends and they both cheated on me with other guys and they didn't even feel bad about it. there were even some women who were unattractive like me and even they didn't want to have anything to do with me. There were also a few girls that i had sex with that actually wanted to have sex with me but they were only one time and a few that i actually had to pay. no i'm not afraid to admit that.
when i would be on adult personal websites posting ads for women that would like to have sex with me, i would get nothing but spam and the real responses would be from other men. I would always get upset by that and say no. but one day i came to a conclusion that guys would hit me up more than the women so i decided to just try it once. I would think that i would stop at 1 but then it was another one and another one. this past year i have had sex with 5 men. all protected of course.
But i don't do everything when it comes to fucking with other guys. I DO NOT suck other guys dicks. I DO NOT lick/eat other guys ass and I DO NOT get myself fucked EVER! those are my limits. so basically i'm what's called a top. here's the thing: each time i had sex with them it got less and less satisfying. and the 5th one was the worst and surely turned me off. he was the last one. i do not wanna do this anymore!
I still love women. always get a hard-on when i see one that i want to get with but i don't have the confidence or the good looks to do it because the end result is always the same. i don't get a hard-on when i see a guy that may look good but it didn't stop me from doing what i've done. I remember telling myself before all of this started that i would not turn from women to men no matter how many times these women end up cheating on me, screw me over or put me down, i would never turn to other men! but i did anyway and now i regret this past year and all 5 men i been with. i've been depressed and have low self-esteem about myself for most of this year. I've now decided to just be by myself for now on. i still love women even if they don't love me or even like me. but if they don't want to get to know me or be with me then i'll just be alone but i just cannot and will not go back to having sex with other guys anymore.
I don't even know what category i fall in. A straight man on the DL or a Bi-sexual man. I want to know from you all what do you think about my situation and the life i've led. Am I worrying too much over nothing? Do you consider me straight on the low or Bi? Any replies good or bad are welcome. just not to mean and heartless but truthful.
FIRST OFF I GOTTA SAY I HOPE DIS DUDE STILL ALIVE TALKING BOUT HE BEEN DEPRESSED AND STUFF BUT IT SEEMS FROM WHAT HE TYPED THAT HE CHOSE TO GO OVER TO DA SAME TEAM JUST 4 DA SEX CUZ HE COULDNT GET ANY FROM DA OPPOSITE SEX FOR WHATEVA REASON. WHEN GUYS R ON DA LOW THE MAIN REASON IS THAT THEY AIN'T GETTIN ANY KIND OF SEXUAL SATISFACTION FRM THERE WIVES OR THEY GIRLFRIENDS THIS GUY WAS ON DA LOW CUZ FOR SOME REASON HE COULDNT GET A GIRL FOR SHIT! IT DON'T SOUNND TO ME LIKE HE WAS CURIOUS ABOUT HIS ORIENTATION ALL HIS LIFE IT SEEM LIKE HE MADE A CHOICE 2 DO WAT HE DID AND NOW REGRETS IT. I KNOW ALL OF MY LIFE DAT I LIKED BOYZ N GIRLZ I KNOW IM BI. I MEAN LOOK AT THE THINGS DIS DUDE DON'T DO WHEN FUKKIN WIT OTHER GUYS THAT SOME TOPS I KNOW EVEN DO. DO I CONSIDER DIS DUDE STR8 OR DL OR BI OR JUST LABEL EM GAY? I DON'T KNOW. PERSONALLY I DON'T EVEN THINK THERE SHOULD B LABELS 4 ALL US IN DA WORLD ANYWAY. SHIT WE ALL HAVE SEXUAL DESIRES AND NEEDS AND WANTS WE ONLY HUMAN. AND I KNOW IN MY LIL HEART THAT GOD LOVES US DESPITE OUR ORIENTATIONS. HE NOT PREJUDICE LIKE OTHER PEOPLE HERE ON EARTH. I THINK MOST OF US NEED 2 TAKE A CHILL PILL N NOT WORRY SO MUCH BOUT WAT THE NEXT PERSON THINKS AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD
AND TO VINNIEXXX I HOPE YOU STILL OUT THERE AND LIVING IT UP. DON'T WORRY YOURSELF ABOUT ALL DAT MAN. U GONNA BE ALRIGHT. KEEP YO HEAD UP AND HOPE THAT YOU DDN'T MIND ME C/P YOUR BLOG. CUZ I THINK DIS NEEDS TO BE DISCUSSED FO REAL!! SO WHAT DO YOU RUDE GUYS AND GALS THINK ABOUT HIS BLOG. WATS Y'ALL INPUT
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