thinking out loud
12:09AM on January 15, 2010

the world has gotten so lose in what looks hot what is cool whats the new  thing do people really just listen anymore this world been telling us something for years and we so def that we never listen too what the world is saying too us and how too work too make it better . what get me is that now adays you have too look like this or like that too be someone there are people in other country who dont give a damn about looks they trying too eat they trying too feed there family . yet the greedest city in the world is thinking of what will look hot for the fall. ....

here is something else that bugs me any one who no me will tell you i have no kind of love for family especially mine  but its seem as if you dont have addleast 7 to 10 kids running around you .that you dont no what being a woman or a parnet is i will admit i dont have kids i dont wont them either never wanted kids. i wasnt that kid who thought of playing house and getting married i never had those thoughts  i never wanted another me running around in this world i never wanted something looking like me or the father out there in this fucked up world . so why is it .if you dont have kids something wrong with you or your not worth dating or being with? i dont get it ... i am rare am a black woman with no kids can cook,clean,creavity,passionate,(if i must say fucking fine as hell) and who take care of her own who got a great sense of humar loving a freak when need too be and sister you can bring home too mom. but yet men wont some thing that is beyond my understanding  someone help me on this cause why say you wont a good woman when you dont ? you wont a hoe someone that treat you like shit and take your money say fuck you all the time use you dog you down you and just disrespect you all the time . you either want a real woman or a hoe make your minds up. men i wont understand you every  yall are like chinese math too me i just dont get it. oh dont get me wrong there are women out here just as wrong too you get a good man and do all that too them and you wonder why some men some black men say they wont white women (which nothing wrong with white women) you dog them so bad you fuck it up for someone else and you wonder why your relationship dont work ???? hmmmm maybe because you were a bitch too some good man and some man deside to treat you like that bitch.... (sorry people this is whats on my mind)