the bitch is out
9:18PM on February 08, 2011

well sense the last time i wrote in here things was bad and i wanted too die i was so down in the dumps and the ones who i thought was my friend was using me lifted and right and they was never there for me it was like lets take what we wont from her shes just some fat chick who dont mean shit. well now all i got too say is the bitch is out and there will not be none of that shit no more hate on me if you wont but you didnt make me nor will you brake me.. for the ones who dont wont too see me happy and wish too see me in my grave wish again you aint getting that either your hit. ( ive learned a lession over the years you cant be nice to some black people they will walk all over you if you show any kind of kindness towards them) (and because of these black people who done me wrong like a mother fucker i dont wont nothing to do with some black people they are the reason am agaist dating or being friends with black people  out here) its not all black people . just a few.. dont blame me for not wanting too hang with my own race . the ones who done me wrong blame them they are the reason i choice not too social with my own race..

my pledge allegiance
1:17AM on August 29, 2010

I pledge allegiance too which i stand one nation under god with
liberty and justic for me .i pledge too be as honesty and open minded
with all that i do and say. i pledge too love myself more and not allow
outside forces come against me and my home.i pledge too be
the same woman as i always been not allowing no one too change me but god. i pledge to only obey my God and listen too the law.
i pledge too stick too what i believe in and not allow outside
demons come inside my life..

question of the day
10:02AM on February 12, 2010

not too sound grim reapish( its a word too me shh lol)here is a question i post too my facebook friends if i died tomorrow could anyone say they really new me? what i liked , what my fravorite color is, what is the one thing that made me smile? something that makes you go mmmm!!!

diary the question
10:23PM on February 04, 2010

what is the problem with some black men they catch a fucking attitude . some of these brothers on here catch a freaking attitude real fast you cant talk too some of these black men they get so moodie this is one reason i dont deal with black men much cause they take every fucking thing serious like you calling them hoes or something. am so tired of dealing with these up tight as black men who catch a freaking attitude when you joke with them i was in this group show and i said his a freak he got a attitude like i called him a hoe.  every time i came in his room he either act like am not there or act like i didnt say nothing too him . this is one of the reason i dont deal with some black men they catch attitudes too fucking fast.. an what get me i can be talking too him and he act like am not even there am tired of some black men not all . am what is fucked up i supported this so called brother  and tell people too check him out even gave him a nick name . but when am in the room he act like am just some embed or something. am not supporting no more brothers am done with that if you act like am bathering you then dont say shit too me no more this so called man no who am talking about. i called this so called man a friend whatever.

he no who he is and if he dont once he get his mind of pussy long enough too think he will no.

thinking out loud
12:09AM on January 15, 2010

the world has gotten so lose in what looks hot what is cool whats the new  thing do people really just listen anymore this world been telling us something for years and we so def that we never listen too what the world is saying too us and how too work too make it better . what get me is that now adays you have too look like this or like that too be someone there are people in other country who dont give a damn about looks they trying too eat they trying too feed there family . yet the greedest city in the world is thinking of what will look hot for the fall. ....

here is something else that bugs me any one who no me will tell you i have no kind of love for family especially mine  but its seem as if you dont have addleast 7 to 10 kids running around you .that you dont no what being a woman or a parnet is i will admit i dont have kids i dont wont them either never wanted kids. i wasnt that kid who thought of playing house and getting married i never had those thoughts  i never wanted another me running around in this world i never wanted something looking like me or the father out there in this fucked up world . so why is it .if you dont have kids something wrong with you or your not worth dating or being with? i dont get it ... i am rare am a black woman with no kids can cook,clean,creavity,passionate,(if i must say fucking fine as hell) and who take care of her own who got a great sense of humar loving a freak when need too be and sister you can bring home too mom. but yet men wont some thing that is beyond my understanding  someone help me on this cause why say you wont a good woman when you dont ? you wont a hoe someone that treat you like shit and take your money say fuck you all the time use you dog you down you and just disrespect you all the time . you either want a real woman or a hoe make your minds up. men i wont understand you every  yall are like chinese math too me i just dont get it. oh dont get me wrong there are women out here just as wrong too you get a good man and do all that too them and you wonder why some men some black men say they wont white women (which nothing wrong with white women) you dog them so bad you fuck it up for someone else and you wonder why your relationship dont work ???? hmmmm maybe because you were a bitch too some good man and some man deside to treat you like that bitch.... (sorry people this is whats on my mind)

diary (open book) well adjusted woman
12:05AM on December 19, 2009

well there is such thing as love and anyone that thinks that need there heads check there is no such thing as love only lust and that it i no that this kills people hopes there are no white knights there is no seeing a man or woman across a room and your eyes meet and at that very moment you not that person is the one that you wil spend the rest of your life with and that aint true there is no better days there no light at the end of tunnel there is no king too save the damsel in destress there is no happy every after there for a black woman who is just trying too stay one step above suicide there is no hope these things was sold too use women when we where little girls our mothers told us that so we will get the hell out her house so she wouldnt have to pay for us no damn more.my mother god rest her soul let me no at a early age there wont be no white knight saving you there will be no happy ever afters there will be times when you just got yoo put all that away and keep moving there will be no man too save ou there wont be no songs too sing when its over get over that shit now there is o santa claus bring gifts there is no easter bunny tooth fair there is just me doing alot of damn things too make you happy. get over it now while you young be better when your older. no man will come save you and do nice things for you learn too do it yourself so you wonder why i dont believe in love,hope it wasn put into my system when i was young so that is why i say love is a lie made too sale movies,songs and post cards so am not a firm bliever in love or hope that crap for white people .i was born too not have that much hope in something like love or even hope for that matter. and am the normal one in my family go figure lol

mzlust rules for living out here
8:55AM on December 12, 2009

1.never give money too friends(they will never pay it back)
2.never tell your dreams,wishes too friends (they always laugh at them )
3. never show emotions too friends (they always tell every one)
4. never show signs of weakness ( they will pound on you when u do)
5.never tell a deep dark feeling too anyone (no one is listen)
6.never let another women try too hook you up with anyone it turns out bad all the time.
7.never date anyone younger then your age you have nohing in common with them,
8.never let ghetto drama bring you down (cause it will kill you)

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disclaimer

if you read this and get mad at what i said  then you must be the one  who's doing it.
this isnt towards anyone person if you look at it that way them your one of them

real deal (happness & the people who dont like it)
11:10PM on December 10, 2009

when am in a bad mood feeling like killing myself people wont too talk too me but let me have good news they dont wont too say nothing they wont too keep to them self then . that is messed up that people dont like it when am happy they only like me when am sad , mad, depressed dont let me do something stupid like be happy people dont no how too take that . wow i didnt no being happy makes others quiet wow

thick chick what the fuck
6:14PM on December 06, 2009

well i don't get this why is that if your single people assume that your up too fuck any and every one. or that you wont someone that you don't no touching your breast like its just fine your single so she's will like a man you don't no grabbing or touching your breast now if your married you are not allowed too be touched in any kind of way. why is it so cutie too mess with the single woman's breast ? why is it that if you aint got a man that your willing too fuck anything that moves i dont get that i think some married people think that all single people are hoes cause some of them treat single people like they should just allow this man they bring around too feel up on you grab you do what ever and you aint suppose too say something now let it be that the married woman get touched someone grabbing her breast every one will be buy her side ready too kill someone but the single woman aint shit do what you wont too her she dont mean shit too me. that kinda cold. why wouldnt i tell a man i never mate no  stop dont touch that . that what get me messed up your called a chicken for not wanting someone you dont no touching your breast. what else get me is its ok if your man is allowed too put his hands on me and he has but let me touch him back am wrong what the fuck.. i dont get it

the real me
12:06PM on December 04, 2009

well what is funny too me no one ive mate no shit about me they only no what they see my few friends dont no shit about me they only see what they wont too see when it comes too me . family dont see me or understand me friends dont see me they see what makes them happy oh she funny she silly oh she dont mean that , when am serious no one believes me i have told my few friends something from the heart they think am joking or that am making some kind of humor statement no am not all ways joking they just wont see me as serious tell something happen too me. when i said i thought of suicide often no one believes me they brush it off and say you need too get out and meet people . my depression dont have nothing too do with me going out, it has too do with a Chemical imbalance  in my system an i need help.when i say am scared of hope they will say i just need too go with the flow ok that aint helping when am scared of hope love is a different state of issues but one will believe me just ask my so called friends they dont believe shit i say..

Thick Chick may have hope for love
11:00AM on December 04, 2009

ok am kinda scared rude people i got hope for love .i feel something in my soul and am kinda scary too me i never had this feeling before i feel hope in my heart and i never had hope there before i feel that love is out there for me i dont no what too think am kinda scared now i never felt this i had love but i never really felt that it was there now i feel hope when there was none am scared like  a mother fucker.

Thick Chick pissed part 2
10:23PM on November 30, 2009

 why should i have too put a wig on every day and be naked in my home for someone too look at me no fuck that , am standing up for the thick chick that i am .  i will show what i wont too show when i wont too show it am going too do what the fuck i wont to do cause i wont too am not chaning who i am cause these men dont wont a thick woman. (fuck them ) it took me years too be happy in my own fucking skin now they wont me too be something am not fuck that am  going too be me no matter what. when am in my live house am not going too worry about why i dont have people in my live house no if they come cool they dont oh fucking well . i didnt make it this fucking far too change who i am for men on here or men out here am going too be the same happy fucking woman ive been fuck them and fuck anyone who say that you got too be this too get that . no what i got too be is me,a real woman who speak her mind  a woman who likes too make people laugh  with jokes and smile am not going too be someone else when it took this long too be who the fuck i am now ...

Thick chick who's pissed
10:14PM on November 30, 2009

well what's been on my mind for the last 4 months why is it that these skinny women seem too be evil and stuck up too me not all but some they always talking about them self like they are god gift too the world and the rest of the women are just here and we dont matter. why is it that skinny women get what every they wont men jump through hoops for them and they let the big girl no this is what i get all the time its fucking annoying .skinny women are praised buy men they get the world good sex every single week they don't have too have normal women issues you no am going too be glade am not skinny cause if that means men treat me different cause of the way i look . they treat skinny women a Certain way cause of there bodies what i got to say too the skinny women big fucking deal get over it!we get treated like shit cause we aint a size nothing . this is not toward all skinny women just the ones who are stuck up women. am killing myself every day too get someone too look at me with a loving looking in there eyes and skinny women get what every they wont just buy looking the way they do . why should I change me cause men  rather have size nothing in there bed am not going too be pushed too get naked for the cam's or show tittes cause men rather see me naked then see me .HEY IF YOU CHECK MY CAM OUT  TAKE ME AS I AM OR GET THE HELL OUT AM NOT CHANGING MYSELF FOR NO INTERNET N*GGA OR TO OUT DO SOME OTHER CHICK ON HERE FUCK THAT ....
love me for me or leave me i dont fucking care.

the real deal
11:57PM on November 24, 2009

here is the real deal and people going too get upsat. but its true look at the facts , facts dont lie all men wont women who either look like a size 6 and like arm candy. they dont wont a thick woman.the skinny girls the small women who look like they 2 hambuger away being dead .  an what piss me off is the skinny girls who get every thing they think am crazy or silly. no am serious as a mother fucker  ok take some of the women on here the small pretty women they get every thing men fall over them like fools men would do what every they wont.  men love them men would give all there money too them. men say sweet things too them  all the time all the time. as for the other big women if you aint half naked or showing tittes or ass, pussy men just ignore you like you aint shit. (if i sound bitter sometimes i am) on the internet if am not naked or showing my pussy or sucking dick am not shit at all , why do i have to show tittes for a man too look at me why do i have too show pussy for a man too care why do i have too be like 100% of the women why cant i be that better % of women who say no like me for who i am not cause you see my breast and ass huh?????

NO MORE
5:26PM on November 19, 2009

NO MORE AM NOT GOING TOO BE PUSH ASIDE LIKE AM NOTHING AM NOT GOING TOO BE TOLD THAT SENSE I CANT GET THE PRETTY GIRL I WILL TAKE YOU INSTEAD NO MORE I WONT BE TOLD THAT YOUR NOT MY TYPE BUT I WILL FUCK  YOU. ID RATHER HAVE A SKINNY GIRL BUT I  WILL FUCK YOU INSTEAD NO MORE OF THAT SHIT FUCK THAT AM NOBODY SIDE LINE HOE.