OPEN MIND OR JUST CRAZY
8:56PM on April 21, 2008
OK SO MY LAST BLOG I STATED THAT I AM VERY OPEN MINDED........AND FOR SOME IT'S HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW I CAN BE THIS OPEN TO THINGS............OK SO HERE GOES......AND I WILL ALSO TALK ABOUT COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS......
I GUESS I CAN START WITH MY SO CALLED COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS........EVERY MAN THAT I HAVE DATED/MARRIED UP TO THIS POINT HAS CHEATED....CALL IT MAN'S NATURE......DOG IT NESS.....PLAYA......WHATEVER TERM YOU WANT TO USE IT WAS DONE......NOW THE REASONS FOR THE CHEATING WITH MOST WAS........I'M A MAN AND MEN HAVE A HIGHER SEXUAL DRIVE THAN WOMEN......OR THERE ARE MORE WOMEN IN THE WORLD THAN MEN SO YOU SEE I HAD TO DO IT.....OR I WAS DRUNK AND I DIDN'T REALLY MEAN TO HAVE SEX WITH HER...... WHAT EVER THE REASON THEY ALL ARE BULL TO ME......NOW DON'T THINK AFTER ALL THIS HAPPENED THAT I WAS LIKE WELL HELL I'LL JUST LET MY NEXT MAN DO WHATEVER HE WANTS AND I'M GOING TO BE COOL WITH THAT......I'VE HAD F*CK BUDDIES...BOOTY CALLS......BOOTY BUDDIES......AND ALL THOSE OTHER NAMES WE LIKE TO USE WHEN WE ARE HAVING SEX ON A REGULAR BASIS WITH A PERSON....NO COMMITMENT....NO STRINGS.....NO INTIMACY.....LOVE OR ANY OF THAT.......NOW IN ORDER TO BE SEXUAL WITH SOMEONE WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME KIND OF CONNECTION......THE WAY THEY LOOK.....MOVE....WHATEVER IT IS THAT ATTRACTED THEM TO YOU OR YOU TO THEM.....BUT AFTER THE SEX ........THAT'S IT......NO CALLS UNTIL YOU/THEY WANT MORE SEX.......NOW ALL THAT'S COOL....AT LEAST FOR A WHILE ANYWAY.......UNTIL SOMEONE...MAINLY THE WOMAN GETS THOSE I WANT TO BE MORE THAN JUST SEX BUDDY FEELINGS....NOT SAYING THAT MEN DON'T GET THOSE FEELINGS BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT WOMEN ARE MORE PRON TO THOSE FEELINGS......NOW YOUR F*CK BUDDY IS READY TO RUN LIKE THE WIND CAUSE YOU CHANGED THE GAME.......YOU GOT THOSE FEELINGS THAT HE/SHE DOESN'T SHARE.......SO.......YOU GET DUMPED BY A F*CK BUDDY.....SO NOW YOU GOT TO GET BACK UP AND TRY SOMETHING NEW.......
WITH ME.....I GUESS YOU CAN SAY WITH AGE COMES WISDOM.......I HAVE COME TO ACCEPT THAT MOST MEN NOT ALL MAY HAVE DESIRES TO BE WITH MORE WOMEN THAN JUST ONE......I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT I CAN EITHER LIKE IT OR NOT.....THESE ARE MY CHOICES TO MAKE.......I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND BE BLIND TO THE FACT THAT A MAN MAY CHEAT ON ME OR I CAN SAY WHY NOT LET HIM DO IT AND STILL BE WITH HIM BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE HIS HEART LIES.......NOW YOU MAY THINK THAT I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM ....LESS SELF WORTH......OR WHATEVER.......BUT WHAT YOU THINK MATTERS NOT TO ME BECAUSE I AM HAPPY WITH WHO I AM AS A PERSON.......
DEFINITION OF COMMITMENT: THE ACT OF COMMITTING, PLEDGING, OR ENGAGING
DEFINITION OF PLEDGE: A SOLEMN PROMISE OR AGREEMENT TO DO OR REFRAIN FROM DOING SOMETHING
WITH THESE DEFINITIONS YOU SEE WHAT IT MEANS TO BE COMMITTED WITH ANOTHER PERSON.....HAVE YOU EVER ASKED FOR SOMEONE TO PROMISE NOT TO CHEAT ON YOU...BE LOYAL.....AND CAN YOU SAY THAT THEY REALLY DID DO THOSE THINGS.....I WENT SO FAR AS TO MARRY AND OUR MARRIAGE LICENSE WAS A WRITTEN CONTRACT OF THAT PROMISE AND DO YOU THINK THAT STOPPED MY EX'S FROM CHEATING???....NOW BY NO MEANS AM I SAYING THAT A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP CAN'T HAPPEN....THERE ARE PEOPLE I KNOW FOR MYSELF THAT HAVE THAT....AND I AM VERY HAPPY FOR THEM....WHO SAYS THAT IN THIS OPEN RELATIONSHIP THAT I CAN'T HAVE THE SAME THING......AS LONG AS OUR LINES OF COMMUNICATIONS STAY OPEN ON BOTH ENDS THEN THIS IS POSSIBLE.....JUST IN ANY RELATIONSHIP TALKING IS THE KEY TO KEEP IT STRONG AND GROWING.....WITHOUT IT...IT'S GOING TO FADE AND NOT GO ANYWHERE......I KNOW WE HAVE ALL HAD FRIENDS THAT WE HANG OUT WITH...DO THINGS WITH...ENJOY THEIR COMPANY....BUT IF YOU'RE GROWING AND THEY AREN'T WILL YOU STILL BE THEIR FRIEND.....YOU CAN'T YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON TO OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE SAME GROWTH PATTERN AS YOU HAVE......
NOW TO ME BEING OPEN MINDED.......WHEN I SAY THAT I MEAN IT TO THE UT MOST......I DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE FOR THE CHOICES THEY HAVE MADE IN THEIR LIVES.....FOR THE SEXUAL EXPERIENCES THEY CHOOSE TO HAVE.....FOR THE JOBS THEY WORK.....FOR THE RELIGION THEY CHOOSE......TO ME IF THEY CHOOSE TO DO THESE THINGS AND THEY ARE HAPPY IN THEIR LIVES THEN LET THEM BE HAPPY......WHY WOULD I CAST JUDGEMENT ON SOME FOR THE THINGS THAT BRING THEM HAPPINESS.....SO ONE DAY I WAS TALKING TO A MALE FRIEND OF MINE.....AND HE TOLD ME THAT MEN NO MATTER HOW HAPPY WE THINK THEY ARE...NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY LOVE US.....NO MATTER HOW WELL WE TAKE CARE OF THEM....STILL WANT TO BE WITH OTHER WOMEN......THAT'S COMING FROM A HORSE'S MOUTH....SO I SAT BACK AND THOUGHT ABOUT THAT.....LONG AND HARD.....IN THE PAST I NEVER WOULD HAVE ACCEPTED THAT SOMEONE THAT I WAS IN LOVE WITH WOULD EVER BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF I WAS DOING WHAT I NEEDED TO DO TO KEEP THEM HAPPY......I SAT DOWN AND THOUGHT.....WHAT IF HE CAME TO ME AND SAID THAT'S WHAT HE WANTED.....AND WHAT IF HE SAID THAT IF I WANTED OTHER MEN THAT'S FINE WITH HIM......I SAT AND THOUGHT ABOUT THAT......IT'S NOT ONE SIDED...WE BOTH HAVE THAT OPTION TO BE WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND STILL HAVE PASSION AND LOVE FOR EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE KNOW THE OTHERS ARE WHAT THEY ARE....SEX....JUST SEX.....NO DEEP FEELINGS....NO HAVING TO LIE TO ONE ANOTHER ABOUT IT....JUST BEING HONEST......AND EVERYONE KNOWS HOW HARD IT IS FOR SOME TO BE HONEST.......FOR FEAR OF HURTING SOMEONE....THE FEAR OF BEING THE BAD GUY/GIRL....THE FEAR OF BEING JUDGED.......SO WITH MY OPEN MIND...I DON'T HAVE ANY OF THAT.....NO REGRETS...NO LIES.....NO DOUBTS.....NO LOW SELF ESTEEM.....NO LOSS OF SELF WORTH......
I DON'T KNOW IF I ANSWERED YOUR QUESTIONS....OR EVENN IF I CAME CLOSE.....BUT I HOPE YOU'VE GAINED A LITTLE INSIGHT INTO THIS ONE OPEN MINDED PERSON......IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE A COMMENT.....PLEASE I WELCOME THEM....IF YOU WANT TO SEND AND EMAIL...THAT'S FINE TOO.....SO I'LL BE WAITING ON THOSE COMMENTS AND I WILL TRY TO ANSWER THEM ALL IN TIME
STUNNA
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