BACK STABBERS!!!!!!!!!!
11:38PM on February 16, 2010

HMMM IN MY ABSENCE FROM THIS SITE I SEE THERE ARE A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT ME.......NOW A FEW OF YOU HAVE ASKED WHEN I AM COMING BACK TO RUDE......BUT WITH PEOPLE DOING SHOWS AND TALKIN SHIT ABOUT ME AND THINKING THAT I WOULD NOT HEAR ALL THE FOUL SHIT SAID....I AM KIND OF GLAD I DID NOT COME BACK ON A FULL TIME BASIS........ALL I HAVE EVER DONE WAS TRY AND HELP PEOPLE ON THIS SITE AND TO NOT BE BIAS TOWARD ANYONE.....I HAVE BEEN ACCUSED OF BEING BIAS TO SOME PEOPLE AND NOT TO OTHERS......I KNOW I WILL NOT BE LIKED BY EVERYONE ON THIS SITE AND I AM NOT TRIPPIN ABOUT THAT AT ALL......JUST LIKE SOME DON'T LIKE ME......PLEASE BELIEVE I DON'T LIKE SOME FOLKS ON HERE EITHER......BUT I FEEL IF YOU ARE BAD ENOUGH TO DO A SHOW TALKING ABOUT SOMEONE....THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE THE BALLS AS WELL TO GO TO THAT PERSON AND TELL THEM HOW YOU FEEL AS WELL.......MOST OF RUDE HAS MY YAHOO INFO AND CAN HIT ME THERE WHEN YOU FEEL THE NEED TO GET STUFF OFF YA CHEST......I DON'T KNOW WHY I KEEP THINKING THAT THIS IS AN ADULT SITE WHEN WE HAVE SO MANY KIDS WANTING TO BE GROWN ON HERE......ADULTS ARE WHAT I DEAL WITH NOT KIDS AND F YOU THINK TALKIN ABOUT PEOPLE DAILY IS WHAT'S GOOD THEN YOU ARE INCORRECT......NOW IMMA LEAVE THIS WIDE OPEN FOR DISCUSSION.......AND IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN INVOLVED IN THIS MADNESS...THIS IS NOT FOR YOU AND IF YOU ARE FEELING SOME KINDA WAY ABOUT THE THINGS I'VE SAID THEN YES THIS IS FOR YOU......

NOW FROM NOW ON WHEN YOU PUT MY NAME IN YOUR MOUTHS...I HOPE IT TASTES LIKE SHIT WITH EVERY SYLLABLE......WHEN PEOPLE ARE GONE AWAY FROM HERE...NEVER THINK THAT WORD DOESN'T GET BACK TO THEM......SOME FUCKING RUDE FAM THIS TURNED OUT TO BE....

OH YEA IMMA SEE YA'LL AROUND HERE CAUSE I'M NOT GONE

MUCH LUV TO SOME.......FUCK THE REST OF YA

RELATIONSHIPS INSPIRED BY THE ONE AN ONLY TAQUILLA
3:56AM on May 19, 2009

                    
as i lay awake not able to sleep at all.....i get up and check my mail.......low and behold TAQUILLA  has written another blog.....of course i go check it out.....which i need to go check every one's out more often....so i read her latest blog and of course i love it.....but i scan her other blogs and i see one entitled "ONLINE DATING" also inspired by another wonderful person on rude by the name of CALIFSTYLE.....she has a list of different kinds of relationships posted there....if you haven't read it....put a pin right here and go check it out and come back to mine......so now that you've read hers or skimmed it whichever.....this brings me to my topic.....

a lot of you know that i have found the man of my dreams online.....and some of you don't believe this is possible.....i will say this...if you can become so close to people and want to know them better on a friend basis.....to know them outside of rude.....to want to go visit them....to want to be a part of their internal lives....then why would and could you not meet someone to be in a relationship with.....some people say that they are open minded......but these same people are not so open minded to see that this can be done.....for a lot of people rude has opened their eyes to a new way of living their lives in general.....not just on the Internet.....more people need to open their minds to new things and explore things......not just sexually but to become so close to people that you call them family...casual friends....comrades.....homies.....partners.....soulmates....ect......then why is finding a mate online impossible???

I'll expound on why it is possible......when you meet someone online....you have so much more time to get to know this person on a more mental level and open a line of communication that most people never have when it's based on just a sexual relationship.......if you so decide you can learn more about this person as time goes on if you find there is a connection......communication is key in any kind of relationship as most people know......you can't even be just passing buddies if you can't say hello to one another......with a distance between the two involved....talking to one another becomes the mainstay that makes it work in any relationship......if you are lacking in this part of a relationship...the Internet can be a tool for you to use to make said skill stronger.....for some it's harder to verbalize what you are saying and with having to write it down....makes it easier to ask questions that most would not dare ask in person or face to face.....

being opened minded doesn't mean you lose your common sense......if you get that feeling that most get when bullshit is being told to you in person....you will get that same feeling over the net......if they are lying about something....in time just like in person they will indeed tell on them selves......if you get that certain feeling in your body that says...run forest run...then damit cut all ties and stop talking to them just like you would if you were face to face with them.....being open minded does not mean you are stupid......it just means you are open to new things and are willing to give it at least one try and if not pleasing to you then you will never have to do them again......

i know there are a lot of single people on this site and on other sites as well.....but because you want someone to be in the same city as you are then you push all others away because the closeness of cities isn't there.....and because you do this you can be missing out on the man/woman of your dreams.....distance can be closed with the use of trains,planes and automobile......where there is a will there is always a way.....it makes the time that you do get to spend together that much better cause you know within those few days.....you will make it all it can possibly be......memories to hold until the next time you or they visit.....when you have a mate in the same city sometimes you forget all the sweet things you did to get them to be your mate.......but with distance.....you have to keep the creative juices flowing in order to make things work if you are willing to put in the time.....relationships of all kinds are hard to maintain.....they all take work....if you are not doing your part....be it friend...lover....soulmate...partner then it will not last.....

i consider a lot of you my friends and family here.....so i do my part to be here whenever you need me.....be it for business.....shoulder to cry on....ear to talk to....problem solver....confidant or just to have a few laughs with....for some it seems i have become a mother figure so to speak.....i'm just glad i didn't have to give birth or diaper your dirty butts.....omg and i didn't even have to breast feed any of you...hahahahhahaha.....just know that i wear all these hats and accept my place with so much honor and pride......like i always say to each of you


if you ever need me i am always here for you.....

now with that said....imma need your two cents...be it positive or negative.....you know imma read them all....kisses

UPDATED....NEW MACRO'S FOR GREENS AND HOUSE OWNERS
10:33PM on March 15, 2009

IF YOU WHERE IN MY SHOW YOU HEARD ME TALKING ABOUT MACRO'S....THESE ARE THE MACRO'S TO USE IN GROUPS SHOWS/LIVE HOUSES....ONLY GREENS....REDS AND PURPLE'S CAN USE THESE IN THOSE CHATS......MAKE SURE TO SAVE THESE ON YOUR CLIPBOARD OR NOTE PAD SO YOU CAN HAVE EZ ACCESS TO THEM WHENEVER U ARE MODING OR IN YOUR LIVE HOUSE.....THEY REALLY COME IN HANDY FOR THOSE TIMES.......IF ANYONE WANTS TO PRACTICE DOIN A GREEN MOD'S JOB....PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK CAN YOU MOD IN MY LIVE HOUSE AND I WILL DO MY BEST TO GIVE U ALL THE ASSISTANCE I CAN TO GET THAT DONE...IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS...PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK AND I WILL DO MY BEST TO ANSWER THEM ALL


New and updated Macros are now in place to be used. Please pass them on to your house appointed Mods.



Ok it seems that there are some issues regarding rules of RUDE.com and what can and what can't be done in chat. I really hate rules because most of it is common sense but it seems that there needs to be some basis to follow.

1. Promoting websites - This should never be done by anyone but a house owner or by OPS when a chatter asks if a house owner has a website or what thier website URL is. Non House owners should never promote their own website in the house chat even if they are a producer. The reason that we don't want this done is because we give a text link to house owners that have a website and if they have an affiliate program we give them a banner. This text link and banner is available above their house stream.

2. No trading of any adult personal profile information, including, but not limited to, My Space ID’s, Yahoo ID’s, MSN ID’s, AIM ID’s, ICQ numbers, telephone numbers and email addresses and physical addresses.

3. No typing in all capitol letters it is ok to capitalize words though for proper grammar.

4. If a chatter is misbehaving, most of the time they can be straightened out by simply muting them and telling them what they did wrong and explaining the proper protocol for the chat room. Or, you may want to give the chatter a verbal warning after muting before taking any disciplinary action. Should this fail to work you have several disciplinary options at your disposal. In any event the chatter should know why they are being disciplined.

5. please do not argue with any rude appointed ops in open chat, take this to Rudemail or contact Rudekenny or Rudelake with any problems.


6. No one under the age of 18 on cam at any time. This includes pictures.

7. No cams should be pointed at a television as there is no control on what can appear on it. And No cams should be put on a t.v/cpu monitor. that is showing any video that is/or could be copyrighted

8. The discussion or use of any hard core drugs in chat, live house or shows is strictly forbidden.

The instruction is /private username and message. Be sure to copy the name exactly as it is written in the chatter’s list.

For Example:

Brett is sending a private message to a Green OP
/private *GishMan01 Good to see you bro

Brett is sending a private message to a chatter
/private Gish You have Rude Mail

NOTE: Make sure you copy the person’s name identical to how it is listed in the chatter’s list including any asterisks. If you forget to start the message with a Diagonal (slash) the message will be shown in the chat just like any other message. Make sure your syntax is correct before you send the message.

8. Make sure that chatters aren't making demanding remarks to the house owners. For Example repetitive requests to do something. Let me stress repetitive means more than once requesting the same thing. I don't think it is necessary to remind chatters that the house owners don't take requests if they only ask once they only need to be reminded if they ask more than once.

9. It is ok if chatters compliment the house owners and they don't need to be told if they make a compliment that all the house owners are the sexiest.

Discipline of a Chatter â€" Click on the chatter’s name in the Chatter’s List

You now have three choices:

Mute â€" The chatter can still see what is happening but is silenced until he logs out and then logs back in.

Kick â€" The chatter is removed from the chat room. He can re-enter the chat room and proceed normally.

Ban â€" The chatter is removed from the chat and is permanently banned from re-entering the chat until the ban is lifted by Administration or the chat server is re-booted.


System: Available Commands:


/whois username - get a user's ip address
/mute username - mute a user
/unmute username - un-mute a user
/ban username - ban a user
/kick username - kick a user out
/ban username - ban a user
/widebanlist - displays list of banned ip blocks
/banip ip - ban a specific ip address
/baniplist - displays a list of banned ips
/a name - loads and sends the stored mesg
/private username message - send private mesg
/showips - displays users ip in message window
/hideips - hides users ip from message window
/clearall - clear history for all users
/close - reset and disconnect all users
/help - this message
/unban (ip adress) - unban single user
/private - Requests are for Private Shows, please refrain from making requests to a house you may be shown the door.


ENABLED MACROS:

For an OP to use the macro/alias in the chat, they need to use the following syntax:
/a

example:

/a add -You can see more of this Producer and even add them to your buddy list bye clicking on the producers name then clicking on my rude space.

/a behind - These cams are behind the scenes of the Houses Guests and what they do at home.

/a caps - Please do not type in all Capital Letters. It is considered Shouting and Annoying.

/a cool Here at Rude we chat with cool and interesting people and occasionally get to watch a lovely House Guests go about their daily life. Sometimes (Hopefully) naked.

/a courteous - Please be courteous to one another and especially to the cam ladies. Be grateful they are allowing you to visit in their houses.

/a dating - This is not a Dating chat room, So please do not try and pick up on other members in chat. If you want to flirt with each other then use rude mail or the Flirting forum. But lets show respect and focus on this Producer.

/a directors - Folks the House Guests know what they are doing and doesn't need a bunch of directors telling them what to do. So please relax and enjoy the view.

/a english - This is an English only chat room. Please do not use any other languages here.

/a french - S'il vous plaît parler anglais seulement, Nous ne parlons pas Français

a/ login - These are voyeur cams not show cams. If a house is logged into the chat then their names will appear in the chatters list in purple.

/a newwindow - If you press Ctrl and N at the same time, you will open another window. Then you can click between the two windows. There is no limit to the number of windows you can open.

/a polite - Please be polite and show respect to all users in this chat room. If this is something you are unable to live with, simply leave now before muted, kicked or even Banned from the chat room. Thank you for your continued support, enjoy!

/a private - If you are wanting a Private show with this producer then please go to producers rude page and mail him/her, or use the book a private function that is set up on the producers rude page.

/a pssst - Pssst: None of the House Guests are in chat with us. Only their cams are on.

/a pushy - No obnoxious or pushy people are allowed. The House Guests do not take requests or demands. Please be courteous to them and they may give something nice in return.

/a remember - Please be courteous, to the House Guests. Remember, these are Voyeur Cams, not show cams. What you see is what you get. The House Guests do not accept requests or demands.

/a rules - No Directing or Requesting, and No Capital Letters, Please use English Only, Be Polite and Courteous At ALL Times, Failure to comply with the rules will result in you being muted, kicked or even Banned from the chat room.

/a german - bitte nur english dies ist ein englischer chat

/a sexiest - Every one of the Producers here is the sexiest person alive for someone. There is no favoritism here at Rude.

/a spanish - Por favor hable inglés sólo, Nosotros no hablamos español

/a stars - Please show your appreciation to this Producer and click on the stars below and if you really appreciate the Producer you can Tip this producer bye clicking on the heart in corner of screen.

/a status - **Purple chat names are House Owners **Red chat names are Rude assigned ops *Green chat names are House appointed ops

/a trading - No trading of any adult personal profile information, including, but not limited to, My Space ID’s, Yahoo ID’s, MSN ID’s, AIM ID’s, ICQ numbers, telephone numbers and email addresses and physical addresses.

I hope this addresses all the issues and gets everyone on the same page.

AFFILIATES.............EMBEDS ETC...............................

ladies and gents of the producer world, please make sure you pass this on to all your producer buddys with websites they want affiliated to Rude its very important as it has been a major problem and we want it cut down to a minimum.

If you have a website of your own and want it affiliated then it needs to be A PAY SITE, this means it has to have a PASSWORD PROTECTED MEMBER AREA, im sure you can appreciate there are many reasons for this, one being people using your site to visit Rude through an embed. We will not accept myspace, facebook or any other social networking sites or any site that isnt A PAY SITE OR PASSWORD PROTECTED so please dont even submit them.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

check out this post by Rudedavid it explains in more detail

http://rude.com/main/message_board/view_post/topic/75111/banners-for-house-show-info-by-RudeDavid

PISSED OFF AND VENTING
3:08AM on October 31, 2008

OK HERE'S THE DEAL.......IT SEEMS NOVACAINE HAS BEEN TELLING EVERYONE I TREATED HIM BADLY WHEN HE VISITED ME.......IMMA EXPLAIN WHY I DID SO.......

SINCE THE FIRST TIME HE TOLD ME HE LIKED ME AND WANTED TO BE MORE THAN FRIENDS....I TOLD HIM I WAS NOT INTERESTED IN HIM IN THAT WAY....BUT HE SEEM TO THINK THAT BY COMIN TO SEE ME THAT IT MIGHT CHANGE MY MIND ....BEFORE HE GOT HERE I TOLD HIM HE WAS NOT COMING TO SEE ME..... ALL HE WAS DOING WAS COMING HERE TO GO TO HIS GAME AND THAT'S IT......

HE CAME HERE AND BOUGHT ME FLOWERS AND BOUGHT FOOD TO COOK IN THE HOPES THAT I WOULD WANNA BE HIS WOMAN........THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS HERE HE SAT IN THE ROOM I LET HIMS SLEEP IN AND WATCHED ME ON CAM.....TEXTED ME FROM YAHOO AND DID THAT THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS HERE.....IT SEEMS I WASN'T THE ONLY PERSON THAT HE WAS TEXTING AS WELL...HE WAS TEXTING THEM TELLING THEM MY PERSONAL BUSINESS ABOUT WHAT I WAS DOING.....WAS IT HIS BUSINESS TO TELL HELL NO....DID THEY TELL ME EVERY WORD THAT WAS SAID YES......DID I TELL THEM THE EXACT SAME THING I'M POSTING HERE YES........NOW YOU ARE TELLING EVERYONE I GOT YOU RUDE ACCOUNT TAKEN AWAY AND I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT...MAYBE IT WAS ONE OF THE PEOPLE YOU WERE TEXTING THAT TOLD HOW YOU WERE ACTING AND THAT'S WHY RUDE SENT YOU MAIL SAYING YOUR IP ADDRESS WAS BANNED.......I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT AND YOU NEED TO STOP TELLING PEOPLE I DID.....

GET OVER YOUR SELF DUDE......YOU ARE NOT FOR ME...GET IT THREW YA DAM HEAD THAT I DON'T WANT YOU.......YOU HAVE CREEPED ME OUT TO NO DAM END....I'VE NEVER BEEN AFRAID OF ANYONE BUT YOU HAVE MADE ME SO PARANOID I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANY OTHER CONVO TO TALK ABOUT BUT HOW U ACTED HERE IN MY HOME...I HAVE ASKED YOU TO STOP CALLING ME AND I HAVE NO NEED OF YOUR FRIENDSHIP AND AS OF YET......YOU ARE STILL CALLING ME AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY???STILL COMIN INTO MY LIVE HOUSE AND SAYING THINGS TO ME......WHY????

WITH THIS SAID.....I AM SO DONE WITH ALL OF THE BULLSHIT THIS GUY HAS DONE TO ME AND INNOCENT PEOPLE ON HERE.....JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND MOVE THE HELL ON.....FROM NOW ON IF U COME TO MY HOUSE I WILL NOT DO ANYTHING JUST SIT THERE LIKE U SIT THERE AND LOOK AT ME......I'M SO TIRED OF IT AND I'M TOO THREW.....

PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT OR DON'T ...THIS JUST A VENT POST TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST TO SEE WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT IT....

LOVE AND RESPECT
STUNNA

HEART BROKEN
7:54AM on September 12, 2008

YEA I DECIDED TO WRITE ABOUT THIS DAM BROKEN HEART........I'M STUNNED AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY....GAVE MY HEART TO A PERSON AND YET AGAIN THEY MISUSED IT AND RAN OVER IT WITH 15 MAC TRUCKS......AHHHH AND THEY DID PROMISE NOT TO HURT ME BUT I KNEW THAT WASN'T GONNA HAPPEN.......SO I GUESS I GOT WHAT I DESERVED.....I DON'T THINK I DID.....BUT I WILL ACCEPT MY PART IN THE GAME.....GONNA BE STRONG AND KEEP IT MOVING.......BUT FOR RIGHT NOW....MY HEART IS BROKEN INTO A MILLION PIECES.......BUT IN TIME.....STUNNA WILL FIND SOMEONE THAT'S FOR HER......AND YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT BEING UPSET OVER A MAN BUT I'M JUST VENTING RIGHT NOW.....

QUESTION......HAVE U HAD A BROKEN HEART AND WHAT DID U DO TO MOVE ON FROM IT...IS THERE A TIME LIMIT ON BEING THIS WAY????

YANNO I LOVE TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS...COME SHARE WITH ME

CRY BABY ASS MEN
6:54PM on July 03, 2008

                                                    

I'M SO TIRED OF THESE CRYING ASS MEN ON RUDE....YOU COME IN CHAT AND DO WRONG AND GET A DAM WARNING AND WANT TO CRY LIKE A BITCH ABOUT IT....CALL PEOPLE DURING THEIR SHOWS TO WHINE AND BITCH LIKE A PUSSY AND THEN THINK SOMEONE'S GONNA RESPECT YOU....GET THA FUK OUTTA HERE......IF YOU KNEW HOW TO BEHAVE IN CHAT THEN YOU WOULDN'T GET WARNED OR BE MUTED AND HAVE TO SIT IN CHAT AND NOT BE ABLE TO TALK THE WHOLE SHOW......YOU WANT RESPECT BUT YOU AREN'T WILLING TO GIVE IT IN RETURN......GET THA FUK OUTTA HERE WITH THE BULLSHIT......MAN THA FUKK UP AND ACT LIKE YOU GOT SOME FUKIN BALLS AND STOP BEING BITCH-LIKE....NOW YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME DOING MY JOB WHEN I MODERATE FOR PEOPLE....TAKE THAT UP WITH RUDE....BUT I AM DOING WHAT WAS ASKED OF ME IN CHAT AND YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DISRESPECT ANYONE AS LONG AS I'M THERE....AND PLEASE DON'T THINK THEY GONNA TAKE ME OFF THE MODERATOR SPOT CAUSE YOU CAN'T BE A GENTLEMAN IN A CHATROOM

GROW THA FUK UP AND BE A DAM MAN ABOUT YOURS......ALL THIS CRYING ABOUT GETTIN A WARNING OR BEING MUTED BECAUSE YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE AIN'T THE BUSINESS...

IS ANYONE ELSE TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT OR IS IT JUST LIL OLE ME???????

AS I LAY.....
11:03PM on June 19, 2008


AS I LAY IN BED ASLEEP....I WAS AWAKENED BY THE SOUND OF THUNDER OUTSIDE MY WINDOW......NOW ALOT OF PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THIS BUT RAIN AROUSES SOMETHING WITHIN ME THAT MAKES ME WANT TO BE MADE LOVE TO WITH MUCH PASSION.......EVEN IF I AM IN THE TUB OR SHOWER OR I GO TO THE BEACH AND I CAN SMELL THE OCEAN AND I KNOW IT'S THERE.....IT BRINGS ABOUT A FEELING OF SEXUAL DESIRE THAT I MUST HAVE QUENCHED........SINCE I AM SINGLE AND MY SECRET LOVE ISN'T EVEN CLOSE TO ME......WHAT IS A GIRL TO DO.......SO I CLOSE MY EYES AND I DO WHAT COMES NATURAL.......WITH THE THOUGHTS AND SOUND OF BODIES INTERTWINE........THE SMELL OF SWEAT AND PASSION IN THE AIR.....EVEN THOUGH IT'S JUST ME IN MY MIND I AM WITH HIM.......I TOUCH ME LIKE HE WOULD TOUCH ME AND I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT.........

NOW MY QUESTION TO YOU IS........WHAT BRINGS ON THE URGE TO BE MADE LOVE TO....IS IT A PLACE....SOUND....SMELL....A THOUGHT....A DREAM?????


I WOULD LOVE IF YOU SHARED THESE THINGS WITH ME......WE MIGHT HAVE SOMETHINGS IN COMMON

MY APPRECIATION SHOWED
1:38PM on June 02, 2008


HOW DO I START??? WELL LET ME START AT THE BEGINNING......AS OF MAY 13TH MY MOTHER PASSED AWAY....BEFORE THAT HAPPENED I KNEW THAT I HAD SOME FRIENDS HERE ON RUDE BUT I NEVER THOUGHT THAT SAID FRIENDS WOULD SHOW ME SO MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT AS I DID RECEIVE....

SO HERE I AM TO SHOW YOU JUST A TINY BIT OF LOVE IN RETURN...THERE'S A SAYING THAT GOES...."GIVE PEOPLE THEIR FLOWERS WHILE THEY ARE ALIVE"....SO HERE'S MY FLOWERS OF SORTS TO SOME OF MY RUDE FAMILY.....

MAXIMUS172.....MY LOVE...MY HEART.....THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING WITH ME IN SPIRIT AND SHOWING ME SO MUCH CONCERN WHEN I NEEDED IT THE MOST....LOVE U BABY

D_NAZ_D1......MY DALLAS TEDDYBEAR.......MMWWAAHHH.......YOU CHECKED ON ME DAILY AND LET ME KNOW THAT IF I EVER NEEDED ANYTHING THAT YOU ARE JUST A 4 HR RIDE AWAY......I LOVE YOU MAN

CALLMEMAMI........LADY THANKS SO MUCH FOR CHECKING ON ME DAILY AND JUST BEING THE SWEETEST SWEETHEART I KNOW....LOVE YOU MAMI

SINCITYVIXEN.......YOU MY CUTIE.....MY SIN IN VEGAS.....MORE LIKE AN ANGEL IN VEGAS.......THANKS FOR THE LOVE AND CARING AND JUST BEING YOU....LOVE YOU SINNY

JVEGAS........JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I KNEW ALL SIDES TO YOU....I SAW A TENDER LOVING SIDE AS WELL AND THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE.....J YOU KNOW I GOT LOVE FOR U

TAQUILLA......THE TEMPTRESS.......THE QUEEN OF SEDUCTION.......I LOVE YOU AND ALL THAT YOU STAND FOR....JUST FOR BEING THE LADY THAT I WOULD LOVE TO GROW UP TO BE ONE DAY

MAYALICIOUS AND DEVEN KELLY......MY FAVORITE RUDE COUPLE......I KNOW YOU TWO WERE SENDING MUCH LOVE AND POSITIVE ENERGY MY WAY DURING THAT TIME....AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU FOR THAT AND SO MUCH MORE.....LOVE YOU BOTH TO DEATH

BLKBARBIE31........THANKS FOR THE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND LOVE....LOVE YA GIRLY

THA1STLADY......YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HELPED ME DURING THAT TIME.....WHEN I NEEDED TO LAUGH....MAN DID YOU MAKE ME LAUGH.....YOU GOT MY MIND OFF OF ALL THE THINGS THAT CLUTTERED MY HEAD IF ONLY FOR AN HOUR...MMWWAAHHH LOVE YA WOMAN

SOL_HOOD AKA MELOE......YOU AS WELL SHOWED ME LOVE IN THE MIDST OF MY SORROW AND I WANT TO SAY THANKS SO MUCH.....LOVE U SOL

DEVAUGHNT......WHAT CAN I SAY......YOU CAME TO THE FUNERAL AND SHOWED LOVE FOR ME AND I WISH I COULD SHOW MORE LOVE THAN JUST THIS...BUT YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU LIKE A FAT KID LOVES CAKE

DATBOIDIDDY.......WE'VE NEVER REALLY TALKED BUT YOU CAME AND SHOWERED ME WITH LOVE AS WELL AND YOU REALLY DIDN'T HAVE TO BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE SO CARING....YOU STOPPED BUT AND GAVE ME SOME LOVE.....LOVE YA DIDDY

GTOWNDOG.......MY FELLOW TEXAN....THANKS FOR STOPPING BY MY PAGE AND SHOWING LOVE.....LOVE YA G WITH YA RESTRICTED ASS

NIPPTUCK....I KNOW YOU AREN'T A BIG TALKER BUT YOU SHOWED ME LOVE AS WELL ....LOVE YA BOY

TURBO.......FOR STOPPING BY AND GIVING ME LOVE AND CARING.....LOVE YOU SO MUCH

SPARTAN1970.......MY SOLDIER AND HERO FOR LIFE......YOU TOOK SOME TIME TO COME BY AND CHECK ON ME AND SEE IF I WAS OK.......SO YANNO I GOT LOVE FOR YOU AS WELL

BIGDADDYDUBBZ30.....THE NEWEST MEMBER OF RUDE BUT A LONGTIME FRIEND OF MINE FOR ANOTHER PLACE......YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS OVERWHELMING AND YOU KNOW WITHOUT QUESTION......I LOVE YOU CRAZY MAN.....BIG BIG BIG HUG AND ZILLIONS OF KISSES



FOR THOSE THAT SHOWED ME LOVE IN THE LIVE HOUSE AND GROUP SHOWS.......DON'T THINK I'VE FORGOTTEN YOU.......FOR THE WORDS OF LOVE AND SINCERE CONCERN YOU HAD FOR ME.....LOVE YOU AS WELL......KISSES AND HUGS TO YOU ALL


NOW IMMA CLOSE WITH THIS.......IF THERE IS ANYONE OUT THERE THINKING THAT THE INTERNET IS FULL OF FAKE PEOPLE THAT REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU.......THEN I AM LIVING PROOF THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT ARE CARING, LOVING, ENCOURAGING....REAL PEOPLE ON THE OTHER END OF THE INTERNET.....THERE TO GIVE YOU LOVE AND SUPPORT WHEN YOU NEED IT THE MOST.....


MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT

STUNNA

OPEN MIND OR JUST CRAZY
8:56PM on April 21, 2008

                                       
OK SO MY LAST BLOG I STATED THAT I AM VERY OPEN MINDED........AND FOR SOME IT'S HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW I CAN BE THIS OPEN TO THINGS............OK SO HERE GOES......AND I WILL ALSO TALK ABOUT COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS......

I GUESS I CAN START WITH MY SO CALLED COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS........EVERY MAN THAT I HAVE DATED/MARRIED UP TO THIS POINT HAS CHEATED....CALL IT MAN'S NATURE......DOG IT NESS.....PLAYA......WHATEVER TERM YOU WANT TO USE IT WAS DONE......NOW THE REASONS FOR THE CHEATING WITH MOST WAS........I'M A MAN AND MEN HAVE A HIGHER SEXUAL DRIVE THAN WOMEN......OR THERE ARE MORE WOMEN IN THE WORLD THAN MEN SO YOU SEE I HAD TO DO IT.....OR I WAS DRUNK AND I DIDN'T REALLY MEAN TO HAVE SEX WITH HER...... WHAT EVER THE REASON THEY ALL ARE BULL TO ME......NOW DON'T THINK AFTER ALL THIS HAPPENED THAT I WAS LIKE WELL HELL I'LL JUST LET MY NEXT MAN DO WHATEVER HE WANTS AND I'M GOING TO BE COOL WITH THAT......I'VE HAD F*CK BUDDIES...BOOTY CALLS......BOOTY BUDDIES......AND ALL THOSE OTHER NAMES WE LIKE TO USE WHEN WE ARE HAVING SEX ON A REGULAR BASIS WITH A PERSON....NO COMMITMENT....NO STRINGS.....NO INTIMACY.....LOVE OR ANY OF THAT.......NOW IN ORDER TO BE SEXUAL WITH SOMEONE WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME KIND OF CONNECTION......THE WAY THEY LOOK.....MOVE....WHATEVER IT IS THAT ATTRACTED THEM TO YOU OR YOU TO THEM.....BUT AFTER THE SEX ........THAT'S IT......NO CALLS UNTIL YOU/THEY WANT MORE SEX.......NOW ALL THAT'S COOL....AT LEAST FOR A WHILE ANYWAY.......UNTIL SOMEONE...MAINLY THE WOMAN GETS THOSE I WANT TO BE MORE THAN JUST SEX BUDDY FEELINGS....NOT SAYING THAT MEN DON'T GET THOSE FEELINGS BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT WOMEN ARE MORE PRON TO THOSE FEELINGS......NOW YOUR F*CK BUDDY IS READY TO RUN LIKE THE WIND CAUSE YOU CHANGED THE GAME.......YOU GOT THOSE FEELINGS THAT HE/SHE DOESN'T SHARE.......SO.......YOU GET DUMPED BY A F*CK BUDDY.....SO NOW YOU GOT TO GET BACK UP AND TRY SOMETHING NEW.......

WITH ME.....I GUESS YOU CAN SAY WITH AGE COMES WISDOM.......I HAVE COME TO ACCEPT THAT MOST MEN NOT ALL MAY HAVE DESIRES TO BE WITH MORE WOMEN THAN JUST ONE......I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT I CAN EITHER LIKE IT OR NOT.....THESE ARE MY CHOICES TO MAKE.......I CAN CLOSE MY EYES AND BE BLIND TO THE FACT THAT A MAN MAY CHEAT ON ME OR I CAN SAY WHY NOT LET HIM DO IT AND STILL BE WITH HIM BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE HIS HEART LIES.......NOW YOU MAY THINK THAT I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM ....LESS SELF WORTH......OR WHATEVER.......BUT WHAT YOU THINK MATTERS NOT TO ME BECAUSE I AM HAPPY WITH WHO I AM AS A PERSON.......

DEFINITION OF COMMITMENT: THE ACT OF COMMITTING, PLEDGING, OR ENGAGING

DEFINITION OF PLEDGE: A SOLEMN PROMISE OR AGREEMENT TO DO OR REFRAIN FROM DOING    SOMETHING

WITH THESE DEFINITIONS YOU SEE WHAT IT MEANS TO BE COMMITTED WITH ANOTHER PERSON.....HAVE YOU EVER ASKED FOR SOMEONE TO PROMISE NOT TO CHEAT ON YOU...BE LOYAL.....AND CAN YOU SAY THAT THEY REALLY DID DO THOSE THINGS.....I WENT SO FAR AS TO MARRY AND OUR MARRIAGE LICENSE WAS A WRITTEN CONTRACT OF THAT PROMISE AND DO YOU THINK THAT STOPPED MY EX'S FROM CHEATING???....NOW BY NO MEANS AM I SAYING THAT A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP CAN'T HAPPEN....THERE ARE PEOPLE I KNOW FOR MYSELF THAT HAVE THAT....AND I AM VERY HAPPY FOR THEM....WHO SAYS THAT IN THIS OPEN RELATIONSHIP THAT I CAN'T HAVE THE SAME THING......AS LONG AS OUR LINES OF COMMUNICATIONS STAY OPEN ON BOTH ENDS THEN THIS IS POSSIBLE.....JUST IN ANY RELATIONSHIP TALKING IS THE KEY TO KEEP IT STRONG AND GROWING.....WITHOUT IT...IT'S GOING TO FADE AND NOT GO ANYWHERE......I KNOW WE HAVE ALL HAD FRIENDS THAT WE HANG OUT WITH...DO THINGS WITH...ENJOY THEIR COMPANY....BUT IF YOU'RE GROWING AND THEY AREN'T WILL YOU STILL BE THEIR FRIEND.....YOU CAN'T YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON TO OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE SAME GROWTH PATTERN AS YOU HAVE......

NOW TO ME BEING OPEN MINDED.......WHEN I SAY THAT I MEAN IT TO THE UT MOST......I DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE FOR THE CHOICES THEY HAVE MADE IN THEIR LIVES.....FOR THE SEXUAL EXPERIENCES THEY CHOOSE TO HAVE.....FOR THE JOBS THEY WORK.....FOR THE RELIGION THEY CHOOSE......TO ME IF THEY CHOOSE TO DO THESE THINGS AND THEY ARE HAPPY IN THEIR LIVES THEN LET THEM BE HAPPY......WHY WOULD I CAST JUDGEMENT ON SOME FOR THE THINGS THAT BRING THEM HAPPINESS.....SO ONE DAY I WAS TALKING TO A MALE FRIEND OF MINE.....AND HE TOLD ME THAT MEN NO MATTER HOW HAPPY WE THINK THEY ARE...NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY LOVE US.....NO MATTER HOW WELL WE TAKE CARE OF THEM....STILL WANT TO BE WITH OTHER WOMEN......THAT'S COMING FROM A HORSE'S MOUTH....SO I SAT BACK AND THOUGHT ABOUT THAT.....LONG AND HARD.....IN THE PAST I NEVER WOULD HAVE ACCEPTED THAT SOMEONE THAT I WAS IN LOVE WITH WOULD EVER BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF I WAS DOING WHAT I NEEDED TO DO TO KEEP THEM HAPPY......I SAT DOWN AND THOUGHT.....WHAT IF HE CAME TO ME AND SAID THAT'S WHAT HE WANTED.....AND WHAT IF HE SAID THAT IF I WANTED OTHER MEN THAT'S FINE WITH HIM......I SAT AND THOUGHT ABOUT THAT......IT'S NOT ONE SIDED...WE BOTH HAVE THAT OPTION TO BE WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND STILL HAVE PASSION AND LOVE FOR EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE KNOW THE OTHERS ARE WHAT THEY ARE....SEX....JUST SEX.....NO DEEP FEELINGS....NO HAVING TO LIE TO ONE ANOTHER ABOUT IT....JUST BEING HONEST......AND EVERYONE KNOWS HOW HARD IT IS FOR SOME TO BE HONEST.......FOR FEAR OF HURTING SOMEONE....THE FEAR OF BEING THE BAD GUY/GIRL....THE FEAR OF BEING JUDGED.......SO WITH MY OPEN MIND...I DON'T HAVE ANY OF THAT.....NO REGRETS...NO LIES.....NO DOUBTS.....NO LOW SELF ESTEEM.....NO LOSS OF SELF WORTH......

I DON'T KNOW IF I ANSWERED YOUR QUESTIONS....OR EVENN IF I CAME CLOSE.....BUT I HOPE YOU'VE GAINED A LITTLE INSIGHT INTO THIS ONE OPEN MINDED PERSON......IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE A COMMENT.....PLEASE I WELCOME THEM....IF YOU WANT TO SEND AND EMAIL...THAT'S FINE TOO.....SO I'LL BE WAITING ON THOSE COMMENTS AND I WILL TRY TO ANSWER THEM ALL IN TIME

STUNNA

IN MY PERFECT WORLD
4:36PM on April 20, 2008

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IN MY PERFECT WORLD....... MY MAN WOULD HAVE PASSION UNRIVALED FOR ME AND ME ONLY........HE CAN HAVE DESIRES FOR OTHER WOMAN AND EVEN ACT UPON THOSE BUT HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE PASSION FOR ME....BY THIS I MEAN THAT NO MATTER HOW MANY WOMEN HE DESIRES......HIS HEART MIND AND SOUL BELONGS TO ONLY ME........

HAVING THIS OPEN MIND MAY SEEM STRANGE TO MOST BUT I KNOW THERE ARE OTHERS OUT THERE WITH THIS SAME STATE OF MIND...........FOR ME I AM SO SECURE WITH WHO I AM THAT A MAN'S DESIRES FOR ANOTHER WOMAN WILL NEVER SHAKE ME.........YOU MAY BE THINKING THIS WOMAN HAS LOST HER MIND BUT PLEASE BELIEVE I AM IN MY RIGHT MIND AS I TYPE THIS.......

WHAT I'M ABOUT TO SAY IS GOING TO SEEM STRANGE BUT REAL IS REAL.........MOST MEN...YES EVEN YOUR MAN.......DESIRES TO BE WITH OTHER WOMEN.........AND HE HAS A CHOICE TO MAKE WITH THOSE DESIRES.....HE CAN LIE TO YOU OR HE CAN BE HONEST AND TELL YOU THE TRUTH.......NOW MOST OF US WOMEN WANT THE TRUTH BUT IN REALITY WE CAN NOT HANDLE THE TRUTH.........I ON THE OTHER HAND CAN HANDLE THE TRUTH.....LIES HAVE NO PLACE IN MY LIFE AND IF YOU CHOOSE TO LIE THEN PLEASE BREAK WIDE AND DISMISS THAT FROM MY PRESENCE.......

AS WOMEN WE SHARE OUR MEN AND WE DON'T KNOW CAUSE WE CHOOSE NOT TO KNOW........BUT I WOULD RATHER HIM BE HONEST AND LET ME KNOW THAT HE HAS THOSE DESIRES........I'M SO OPEN MINDED THAT HE CAN EVEN ACT ON THOSE DESIRES.......YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I WILL LET HIM........BECAUSE OF PASSION.......HIS PASSION FOR ME IS GREATER THAN HIS DESIRE FOR HER AND I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT HE IN MINE TOTALLY.........NOW DON'T GET IT TWISTED.......I KNOW THAT THEIR MAY BE A TIME WHEN HE DECIDES THAT HIS DESIRE HAS CHANGED INTO PASSION FOR ANOTHER WOMAN......AND THAT TO I KNOW MAY HAPPEN........BUT PLEASE BELIEVE I WILL FOREVER BE A MEMORY IN HIS LIFE THAT HE WILL NEVER FORGET......JUST AS HE HAS UNDYING PASSION FOR ME...I ALSO HAVE THAT PASSION FOR HIM IN RETURN....HE WILL NEVER HAVE TO WONDER WHERE MY HEART LIES BECAUSE WITHOUT A DOUBT HE WILL KNOW I AM HIS AND HE IS MINE.......

NOW I BET YOU ARE WONDERING WHY I BLOGGED ABOUT THIS........I WANT YOU TO BE HONEST AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT IT AND I KNOW MY RUDE PEEPS GOT ALOT TO SAY.....

CRAVINGS
9:43AM on April 16, 2008

I SO CRAVE THE TOUCH OF A MAN RIGHT NOW..............I'M SO LONGING FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TO BE HERE WITH ME AT THIS VERY MOMENT.......EVEN IF WE ARE JUST SITTING AND LOOKING AT A MOVIE....I NEED HIM NEAR ME HOLDING ME AND MAKING ME FEEL SAFE AND NEEDED..................I AM CRAVING PASSION UNCHAINED.................A DESIRE TO BE WITH HIM IN ANY AND EVERY WAY............TO BE TOUCHED AND TO FEEL THE HEAT OF HIS HANDS ALL OVER MY BODY....................MOST PLACES MEN DON'T DARE TOUCH..........LIKE MY FEET, KNEES,ELBOWS AND WRISTS....................TO HAVE THE SOFTEST OF KISSES PLACE ALL OVER MY BODY IS WHAT I CRAVE RIGHT NOW.......TO HAVE HIS LIPS PLACED CLOSE TO MY EAR AND HEAR HIM WHISPER "YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL!.......................YOU'RE ALL I'VE EVER WANTED!" ARE SOME OF THE THINGS I CRAVE TO HEAR HIM SAY..............

HAS ANYONE BESIDES ME EVER HAD THAT CRAVING FOR HIM/HER???
IF SO TELL ME WHAT YOU HAVE WANTED FROM THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE....
DON'T BE SHY SHARE THOSE CRAVINGS.........THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE MAY BE READING YOUR WORDS AND MAKE THOSE CRAVINGS REAL.......