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Update on situation from last blog...
5:49PM on April 02, 2010

Hello all,

Well, Biff came back home and he reopened his account. We're working things out, but I think I'll still keep this name for Rude. :)

Our girls are very happy he's back home and it will take some time for me to get over the hurt he caused.. but I know we'll get there in time.

Loveya'll!
Kat

Continuing my hiatus :(
4:10PM on September 30, 2009

Hey Ya'll!

I forgot to update my blog here on my health issues lately...

For those that don't know I received my appointment for my gall bladder surgery and it's not until November 18th.

Sucks coz I stay in a lot of pain even on the restricted diet they have me on.

I have lost a bit of weight.. not much.. but a little, but it doesn't matter what I eat my chest still hurts like crazy when I'm done and I'm still having to rely on pain meds to help me out. I try not to take them that often.. only when I'm finished eating so that I can go about my day getting at least the things I need to get done around my house. So I take them twice a day instead of every 4 hours like I was having to in the beginning.

I just miss all of my friends and fans so much on here and I still lurk around and go to some shows when I'm able... I just can't do my own right now until I'm feeling better.

So I'm really hoping after my surgery and I'm all healed up I'll be able to get back on here and have fun again with everyone.

Love to all,

Kat

Missed Miscarriage :(
4:59PM on October 06, 2008

Again, first I want to thank those that have left such beautiful messages of enouragement for me during this time. Both Biff and I appreciate it greatly.

This is an update on what's going on.

I'm extremely sad to say that I've what they are calling a "missed miscarriage".  My HCG ( hormone ) count went down to 17,000 instead of going up and doubling like it should have if things were ok. So I did indeed miscarry, but hadn't expelled anything from it... no bleeding, etc.

So I go tomorrow to the hospital for my pre-op bloodwork and Wednesday I'm scheduled to have a D & C.

It will be an outpatient procedure and I should be home Wednesday night as long as things go well.

I'll have to put off my regular group shows for a while. If I know I'll have people come to see me and just chat for a bit with me w/out having to worry about being nude or masturbating since it will be a while after the D & C before I'll be able to even have sex with my hubby much less do those kind of group shows I will be willing to try to do those. Again, only if I'll have people willing to come chat and bullshit with me w/out feeling pressured about not being nude or any kind of masturbation.

Talk with ya'll later.

kisses,
Kat

Update On Pregnancy News
7:47PM on October 03, 2008

First off I want to say thank you to all those that left comments and sent me Rude mail with your prayers and sweet words of encouragement. I really appreciate you all!

2nd...

The doctors office called me and said my HCG levels are 18.000 which is what it would be for a pregnancy within the 5 - 6 week pregnancy range and not for as far long as we thought/think I am and if that's the case the ultrasound just may not be able to see the fetus yet because it's a bit too early.

So they made an appointment for me to go to the hospital Sunday and get the HCG  blood work done again.

The deal is if the HCG levels double within 48 hours.. that will be a good sign and they will possibly just wait a little while and do another ultrasound on me to see if we actually see more than just the fetal sac.

If they have not doubled or if the levels have gone down.. that means I've possibly already either miscarried or have started to miscarry and just haven't actually expelled anything yet.

Then the hard part again. Waiting for the doctor to get the results and let me know if it's good news or bad news. Which I'll find out Monday afternoon for my appointment at the doctor's office.

I know I'm being very public about this, but I have a lot of good friends on here and feel like I can share this with you.. and just want everyone to know that if you tend to not see me on that much in the next few days or so this is why and I don't want you to worry about me.

I know if it's meant to be it will be and if not.. well, it's something I have to accept and as much as it will hurt.. I'm a strong woman and will do my grieving and go on with my life. If it's meant to be again at another time it will be.. and if not.. that's fine too. I have had 3 wonderful and beautiful children that are the light of my life and am happy to be able to say that I've had the chance to be a parent to them.

Thank you again and I'll let you know more Monday when I know more myself.

Luvya'll!
Kat