My Blog :: Sexual Thinking

Cam Whore
9:36PM on August 25, 2008

 So you think that I'm just a Cam Whore,
When really I'm just the girl next door,
You ask me if I'm a prostitute,
Is that what some of these Rude girls do?

Just because I cammed my ass,
Doesnt mean I fuck for cash,
So busy thinking that I'm a Slut
Can you name one person that I have fucked?

Now I know it seems like I'm a pro,
I must admit I'm very sensual,
So No~ On my days off I dont walk the street,
I sit back and watch my competition hate on me,

And I laugh, cuz it's like an obsession,
Mad at me cuz they have no direction,
No Swag, No Reserve, most of all No Personality,
Listen, Everyone can't be a Franchise like me,

I digress, what was I trying to say?
Oh~ don't come at me that way,
I do this because I like to cum, and to be watched,
I turn myself on, I think I'm really hot,

I'm biased, but smart enough to know,
It takes confidence to put on live shows,
Here's a thought, then you can leave,
Treat me with respect, and that's what you'll receive....



~Strip~










 

Definition of Sexy
4:35PM on July 13, 2008

I've been an active Member/Producer on Rude for what, 3 1/2 months now. I've looked at various pages, left notes & comments for those who have looked out for me... I have also lusted over a few of the sexiest men/women I have ever seen on the net. To me picutres say alot about a person. Perception is everything... especially doing what I do here on rude. But aside from Rude I do have a real life..... just like everyone else. ( I hope)

I have worked as an exotic dancer as many of you may have deduced from my screenname. I have had the opportunity to be in the presence of many nude and/or half naked woman in my life. I've seen so many different shapes & sizes of breasts, ass, pussy... I would consider myself a good judge of what sexy is. Physical sexy that is.

But have you ever seen someone so fine, then they open their mouth & it ruins it for you? I always wonder as I patrol these rude web pages & I see the most major of big dicks & the prettiest of pussies, what it would be like to actually have a conversation with that person. There is something about Intelligence & Swag. Creative Expression & Cockyness. Motivation & Assertiveness. Self Awareness & Self Assurance. Knowledge of Self & Knowledge of the Universe we all dwell within. Something turns me on about a Male/Female that is responsible enough with money that he/she can trick off on me when the feeling arises.

Am I alone here when I say sexy is not just about tits & ass. It's about the complete package & the lifestyle a person lives. And I dont mean fucking every person that lives within a 100 mile radius. What I'm trying to say is that I meet alot of men & a few woman doing my Live Private shows. I was just wondering if it is just my physical that keeps them coming back or is it more? I know some of the guys just jerk & run : ) & thats okay too... but if I'm going to get intimate with someone, wouldn't it be so much better to actually be attracted to them? And not just physically. Maybe I'm just speaking from a womans perspective...

Guys help me out here....

Whats more important to you... Physical Sexy or the Entire Package?

My Roledex
8:31PM on May 11, 2008

If I called every number I've been given by the various men & women on this site, I'd have no time to do anything else but talk. I spend hours here in the evening.. and some weeknights too. I cum across alot of screenames. I receive endless amounts of Private Messages with phone number after phone number.  Most of them are from people who just drop in my chatroom, see me, ask me to show my breasts and ass. And when I dont they leave.

Im trying to grasp the reasoning these indivisuals have, in thinking that I would call a random name & number.

All this to say, I have called select few generous gentlemen from this site. The Gentlemen who respect the fact that I am here to make money and acknowledge & appreciate me by paying for my time. And in turn I acknowledge & appreciate them. Not only that, during my private shows I get the oppurtunity to learn about these certain special persons. I learn wut they like so I can personalize my show to their wants and likes. As such they get to learn & know about me. It's a give and take relationship. They give me chips, I give them a show. They take some of my time, I take the time to get to know them, remember them for next time, and thus a mutually beneficial relationship is created. I am a true exhibitionist, and I love love, love to be watched as well I aim to please. I have zero inhibitions there for specialty shows are my forte'.

Yet and still, I'm sure this will not dissuade random strangers from leaving me their number in my inbox. But I hope this explians why you will not ever get a call. Most of you I can't remember just from your screename. Nor have you given me reason to remember you.  That's because you have not given me reason to even acknowledge you as a MAN. Ever heard of the saying, "Real Men Do Real Things"? Or "Alpha Male"?

I tell you what, help me remember you. Be Creative. Organic. Original. Unbridled & Unabridged.

Massage my mind, and I just may massage your ego one day by surprising your unconventionally inventive ass with a phone call. You up for the challenge?