Power and Control
7:25PM on May 13, 2009
Power: The ability or official capacity to exercise control; authority.
Control: To exercise authoritative or dominating influence over; direct. To hold in restraint; check.
These are two issues that I have been struggling with lately; power and control. I know that for me to give up one or both it would leave me vulnerable and even what some would consider weak. Let’s back up. I am in a position of power and control every day of my life. It is a part of my everyday routine and I cannot allow that to be taken from me as it is how I make my living. But there are times when I would like to give up that power and control.
I have noticed that I have been drawn to erotica that deals with Submission and Domination. I enjoy seeing how the story unfolds. How a person who has had control over themselves and thrives over having that control in other arenas of their everyday life. Seeing how they are ‘forced’ to give up that power and control only to receive more self awareness, more pleasure, a more intense and never before experienced sexual encounter.
Why have I been drawn to erotica that deals with Submission and Domination? One would say because I want to give up the power and control. That I have power and control everyday and I need to break out of that routine. That I want to know what it feels like to no longer be the dominate force. But how can a person that has never given up that power and control do so…and do so willingly?
Even in what I have read it has never been an easy task. The person has to be primed, coaxed, persuaded, and forced to move out of one’s own way. How does one find that person who is willing to dominate, to lead, to teach, to allow you to experience something you have never experienced before? How does one allow a person to take away from you the one thing you have always had control over; one’s self? How does one trust a person to do that? How does one know when they are ready to be dominated? Does one ever know when they are ready or is that too out of one’s own control? Is that time to be decided by the person who wants to dominate and make you submit?
These questions and many more race through my mind as I continue on my journey to self discovery.
Submission: The act of submitting to the power of another; the state of being submissive or compliant; meekness.
Domination: Control or power over another or other.
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