What I wanted, I Cant Have
9:28AM on March 11, 2009
This is my first poem called "What I wanted, I cant have"
Man how stupid can a person be.
A bruth only wanted to show you a good time
Show you the fine points of life
Because you CLEARLY have NEVER been shown those
But what I wanted, I cant have.
We had feelings for each other at potentials
I wanted to keep this in perspective and take it slow
You KNOW you feeling me, but yet your scared
Your scared to be in a potentially good relationship
Your scared to hurt some feelings and be happy
I only wanted to see you happy
But what I wanted, I cant have.
We would spend every night on the phone together
You would tell me about you alls sexual relationship
How you never reached a sexual peak at a woman
How you felt trapped by this guy
A bruth wanted to show you how to be a woman
But you "step back" because of fear
Why? What are you scared of?
I didnt want this
But what I wanted, I cant have
You would think im lying because I tell you your beautiful
Thinking I was bullshitting you because I said your perfect
Because I said your stongly attractive, Im not telling the truth
What reason would I have to lie?
Am I trying to just have sex?
Am I trying to make you a hoe?
Did I make you look at me wierd?
All I am guilty of is liking you, but to much.
The left side of me said"man just leave her alone. she is like the others"
The right side says "man you will be fine. give her a chance and open up"
Sadly to say the left side was right and I wanted to listen to my right.
But I see What I wanted, I cant have
I couldve been like any other guy and said some crappy lines
I couldve bragged about what I owned and been
I couldve said "yeah ill take care of you"
But I didnt because I though and was hoping she was different
I wanted to show her what love is again
I wanted to show her that I wasnt looking for a quick nut
I wanted to be there for her issues and problems
I wanted to show her what a REAL good man was all about
But what I wanted, I cant have
Maybe it was a mistake to get to know her
I shouldve just never spoke right?
Hell..I never even got the chance to really get to know her
Thats what I really wanted. A "CHANCE"..
But all I got the chance to do is give up on what couldve been.
But what I wanted, I cant have.
Why cant I have what I want sometimes?
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