My Blog :: Things that are going on in my life.

Long Distance Relationships?
3:16PM on September 06, 2009

What do you all think about long distance relationships? Do you think that they can work? Is seeing someone you hardly know to begin with worth waiting months at a time for a visit for a few hours? Please let me know your thoughts about loving someone so very far away.

Need a Man to Make New Videos
11:14PM on September 03, 2009

I need a man who wants to make some new videos with me! Are there any volunteers? Any men out there not afraid of a BBW?

Met Leonard
1:44AM on August 23, 2009

I met Lenonard at Club Temptations tonight. He was late and I figgured I was stood up again as usual. He is a very sweet man with a blad head and built very solid. He was very nice and polite to me. I have fun using a whip on him I borrowed from mistress Tiger. She seems to be anamored with him. He gave her several back rubs. We had a little but of fun but I am yet unfulfilled. I so wish very much I had a man of my own. I am so lonely coming home to only animals every single day. I have no one to talk to. No one to share good times with. No one to help me when I really need it. No companionship...

BBW Party at Club Temptations Dayton, OH
10:20PM on August 10, 2009

Jay is Fucking Gone!
8:56PM on August 05, 2009

I am so glad that asshole is finally out of my life! 

Club Temptations
3:16AM on April 05, 2009

Dang, I had no fun tonight. I went to the swing club and could not even get laid. How sad is that shit. It's not like I didnt try either. I was naked and all alone in the hot tub too. Just not my day.

I am so very lonely
9:23PM on February 10, 2009

I am so tired of being alone all the time. It would be so nice if I could find a nice man who wants to invest time in a loving relationship. I dont know why I cant have a man of my own.  I have a job a house a truck never married no kids and no baggage. Its just a shame all the men that have any interest in me live so very far away. Its pathatic.

My Truck is Done
8:00PM on January 27, 2009

Awww my truck just had a new alternator, battery and exhaust put on and now he tells me the engine is shot. Ohh I still owe money on the damn thing too. Now I gotta pay that off and try and start over and get another truck. I am so very sad. Anybody got a nice truck for sale cheap!?

Virus removed finally!
11:51PM on January 12, 2009

Damn kid at work gave me a CD and I put it in without scanning it first. I trusted the idiot! He gave me a terrible torjan that I had to pay $50 to get removed! I am finally back on Rude now and so happy that I can fill my orders.

Work all the time for nothing...
10:50PM on December 21, 2008

It's amazing how I work 6 days a week yet I have no money and not enough hours to survive. I work 3 part-time jobs and try and make a little money on rude. It would be so nice if someone sent me a Christmas gift from my Rude Wish List. It would really make me so very happy. I have only received 3 Xmas cards this year. One from my bank, one from my insurance and one from a friend. I am not feeling it this year and I would love it if someone would brighten my day.

Court Sucks!
1:11AM on December 20, 2008

Court sucked ass today. Jay lied under oath against me. They believed me more than him and found him guilty but broke so all he had to do was pay for court costs. What a fucked up mess. They should at least put him in jail for the cost of repairs. All that fucking time of work 5 times and driving back 80 miles back and fourth from work to court once a week for NOTHING. There is no justice.

A Good Time
2:07AM on December 14, 2008

Ummm I just had the best time. I have not had any in quite a few weeks and needing some dick badly. I got a heads up about a swing party in Centerville and went over there. Thanks Matt for a great time and all the wonderful gifts! There were many men there and only a few women. He had a nice spread of snacks and stuff to drink. He also gave me a gift bag with lots of really nice things in it. He also gave a Christmas card. Only the 2nd one I have gotten this year. The first was from my bank.

Anyone want to send me a gift for Christmas I do have a wish list on here you can send to me and buy with chips. HINT-- HINT

OH sweet relief!
10:56PM on December 09, 2008

I just got home from having my molar yanked out. It has been abcessing and cracked in half for a few weeks now. It only took an hour and a half to get the broken root and all out. I have been in agony and unable to eat anything but jello and yogurt for the last 3 days now. The pain has eased but there is still a lot of swelling of the face and neck from the infection. That is why I have not been on cam for a while. All I gotta do now is get the bleeding to stop and then it will be a week before i can eat solid food again. I can't wait! Please say a healing prayer for me.

Big Tooth Problems Today
12:05AM on December 03, 2008

Well I went to the dentist today and had a root canal. Then he found a cracked tooth on the other side! No wonder I'm in so much pain. I don't think there is anything worse than tooth pain! Please say a prayer for me because now I need to go back and get a crown and I need to come up with the money and I have no Insurance.

Jays disappearance
8:14PM on November 30, 2008

Well, I have not heard or seen anything from Jay now for two days. I guess he has bugged out of my life once again. I hope this time he stays gone for good. He has caused me enough misery in my life for the rest of my life. I will have to spend the rest of the year in and out of court because of him. I have no laptop anymore and I am out $700 for my tore up truck he stole and lost the use of my favorite gun till who know whenever I will get it back. I hate him so much.

I had a funny feeling the day he walked away and I just stood there and watched him walk away until I could see him no longer that it was gonna be something bad going on. I hope he has found a new woman to take advantage of and abuse. I know that I am sick to death of him tearing up and destroying everything in my house. He has left me 2 other times that I know of for other women who ended up not wanting him either. He will go to hell for what he has done to everyone throughout his life.

Stupid Court
10:36PM on November 13, 2008

I can't believe I wasted hours in court for nothing and having to deal with Jay and his deaf friend that drove him there. He wanted me to drive him there. He is so nuts. Everything had been put off until next Wed. I wish this was all over with. He tells me if I dropped the charges it would be all over with. Thats never gonna happen. He tells me he is sorry but that fixes nothing. He he truely cared he would not have done this stupid shit to me in the first place. He makes me just so upset and crazy and confused. I hate him.

Work went on forever
10:48PM on November 03, 2008

It seemed like work went on forever today. The dogs missed me. The garbage men also missed me and I was pissed. I ate chef boyardee for dinner and its not sitting well. I'm bored and anxious. I accidently accepted a collect call from Jay. He is still in jail evidently. I think he wants me to come and visit him. I think he is nuts.

I voted yesterday and stood in line for 2 hours and 10 min. Glad I got it don and over with.

Nice party on Sat.
11:36PM on November 02, 2008

I had a nice time on Sat. Got to drink and dance and have fun after the party. The evening was great. Too bad more people did not make it out there.

Thank you Brian...
11:22PM on October 29, 2008

 Thank you Brian, I had a delightful evening and I really enjoyed the swim. I love the water and it made me feel so relaxed. I hope we can do it again sometime and I hope we can go to the range sometime when I get my gun back.  Your amazing.

I hope I can learn to squirt. That would be wonderful.

It is sooo cold today...
10:58PM on October 27, 2008

Had to have my mother take me to work because my truck got trashed when a guy stole it sun. morning. $700 later and it still needs more work but at least runs now. I am having the worst month EVER!