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Hey there
12:20PM on June 12, 2009

This weeks group shows went pretty good :) On Tuesday I ended up with the giggles right around playtime bcs my bf walked in and was all about trying to watch me. He tried to make it over before the show started but he had to pick up a few things for dinner so didnt quite make it, so he loved that he came in with perfect timing LOL He stood off to the side and let me finish with my group show but let me know that he wanted me to save some for him :P Thurs keep me company while I cam show was a lil weird, I had a room full but no one was chatting which kinda defeats the purpose of u guys bein there to keep me company LOL it was a good crowd albeit a quiet one so things went smoothly and that I always appreciate.
No major or exciting plans for me this weekend I hope all of u have a lil fun for me :) I played hookey last weekend so I have to work ths weekend. Im still fighting to get all of my finances back on track as Im sure lots of u are as well. My bday is coming up in July and I want to be be as much out of the hole as I can so I can save a lil bit for a good day. I want to g out to a few bars in Ybor on Saturday, and on Sunday get a pedicure and have a steak dinner and a tiny get together at Bookers for my closest friends and then some snuggle time :) Maybe fit a tatoo in there somewhere )

Still getting back to good
10:53AM on May 22, 2009

Hiya rude family, just wanted to give those of u interested a lil update on wht has been goin on with me lately. Last month or so Id been trying to pull myself out of an emotional hole at times,and had been going thru alot of umpleasentries as Im sure alot of u have been as well. I recently lost my mother, and was going thru feelings of guilt for being so far away from my family in their times of need and dealing with financial woes. Well I was almost all better with that and then I lost one of the most wonderful men Ive ever met without really knowing why. Well thts not entirely true he told me why and I didnt believe him LOL He was having a bit of difficulty with dealing with my bisexuality and the thought of loosing me to a woman entirely.
Those who know me know how stubborn I can be, and I just wasnt ready to accept that we were not meant for oneanother, uve seen us online do we not look like a good match lol I sent him a one line email the other day letting him know His company was missed and actually got a response that stated he was missing me as well. We decided to talk to oneanother and during the conversation I was able to explain to him that I was content with him in every way and that I truely did want to be with him. Id told him in the beginning of our relationship that I didnt know that I could be with a man forever ,and that is wht he was going on. He didnt want to be fully into me and a yr or so later have me come to him saying Id met a woman I would be leaving him for. I explained that was when wed frist begun dating and really before Id gotten emotionally involved with him, etc. So we have plans to meet ths weekend and discuss if there is a possiblity that we can work things out together, I m pretty sure we can, as he confessed that I was the best gf hes ever had and while tryin to date others kept finding his thoughts back with me. I was feelin the same Im sorry but guys sometimes yall dont know how to act LOL I went on a few dates and was soo discouraged and missing the man that Id grown to love so lets hope I can trick him into taking me back LOL  Even if we dont I will still be a hell of a lot better knowing the reasons why, before Id thought he was lyin about the bisexual thing and that I was just a horrid partner and he didnt want to tell me how silly is that?  :( Ok im off to get started for the day wooohooo have a great weekend all and stop by for a cht sometime, Ill be getting back into my live house chat now that im feeling batter.

Weirdo Day
1:13PM on March 08, 2009

Yesterday turned out to be one of the weirdest days Ive had in quite awhile. It started off normal enough. I woke up and had my breakfast and coffee and then got myself ready to log in for pvt shows. Spent lotsa time in my sponsor house chat room to be kept company while waiting for privates and had to deal with a few frustrating characters :P I had good luck on shows and got to try sumthing new tht it turns out lots enjoy. Pillow humping. During my private I was asked to grind on a pillow as I would his face.forcing my juicy pussy into his mouth. It felt good to rub clit on cotton as I rode the pillow for him. I get to indulge in this activity a bit more as one of my fans has asked me to create him a custom clip with me doing just that. Gonna B Funnnnnn hehe
After I logged out from cam shows I started doing a few chores around the house getting ready to cook dinner for my bf. I made him Sheppards Pie and he loved it. Dinner was good but I got a disturbing phone call from a friend who has recently been experimenting with illegal substances. Id dropped off contact with her waiting for her to be done with this phase, Ive had to deal with substance abuse within my life since I was approx 10 so I dont approve of certain things and can not be present while tht person is in the destructive behvavior. This friend knew wht I had been thru with my mother and ex fiance so it shocked the hell out of me when she told me shed been doing it. She called to accuse me of abandoning her in her time of need etc, and I quickly turned the tables on tht bs I told her I wasnt gonna take that and after a heated conversation she realized how shed miscalculated the situation and were supposed to share a meal today to talk. This convo ruined my evening though, it brought up a lot of old memories and I spent 30 mins in the bathroom crying, doesnt help Im pmsing and have PMDD. Grrrrrrrr Poor Booker didnt get any booty, but he was such a good boy consoling me and making sure I had everything I needed. Definitely gotta make tht up to him .:) Ok on my way to get started today, just wantd to let u know why I might be a bit off if u come to visit today. :) Have great week ahead Kisses and Cums

Happy Hump day
1:55PM on February 18, 2009

Wow it has been quite the month for me. Im finally feeling back to my old self again. Some of u know wht Ive been going thru. Once I was back home I caught the worst cold/sinus infection Ive ever had. I was fighting it for about 3 weeks, starting my days with benadryl and nyquil. Once I was feeling better from tht I began my monthly cycle which put me bck in the bed for another 4 days. Well thts over and done with and Im soo glad to be feeling better. I hate being sick, well I know no one really enjoys it but ya know :) My two group shows for Monday went very well, most behaved themselves and my wonderful red mod took care of those tht didnt quite quickly. I had a yummy orgasm with all my masturbation buddies, I have another free group show today, thanks to SexSearch :) at 9pm EST its Weds so is ,come and look at my lumps day hehe. u can join me by popping my page, and entering via the Live group show area. This is a softcore show meaning I will not be masturbating, no sexual acts will be performed.

Justa daily
11:43AM on December 19, 2008

Yesterday ended up being a lil weird. I was feeling out of it and not very motivated for most of the morning. I started out with good intent :) I did accomplish two group shows, but not alot of camming got done LOL.Ive been wanting to get back into the habit of working out again as my belly is gettin a lil pouchy, now a lil belly is cute as hell so just gotta keep it a small one hehe.Ive found a reason not to get on my step thingy or do yoga in the mornin just bout every day so I came up with the idea to make it a group show so I would have company to chat with and wouldnt be concentrating on how long Id been on my machine so far and it worked out great, I went for a full extra five mins than normal.So proud of myself.AFter my workout I took my cam into the bathroom with me so my viewers could watch me shower after getting all sweaty. I also slacked on my holiday photo shoot I should have had done a long time ago for my website. Bad girl, I need spankins any takers :P I plan on being much more productive today after yoga of course hehe.My old roomie is coming over around 3 so we can do a lil stretchin we always end up gigglin more than we do anything else,but hey tht works our abs out right :P LOL
Hmm just remembered this is my bfs weekend with his daughter so I may be forced to get some things done.My to do list is getting out of control especially when it comes to how long I spend online for pvts.
Even though I wasnt logged in for as long as I should have I managed to have a few fun shows.The one tht sticks out the most was the bj on my dildo.My cambuddy for this show was also a fan of stockings and garters, sweeeeet :) I looked thru my bin where I keep my stockings handy and picked out a pair of beige with black seams up the back. I was already wearing a white bikini top and skin colored booty shorts so I used a white garter and slipped on my 7 inch white platform heels with cherries on them. I did a tiny lil leg tease making sure he could see my nylon clad legs before grabbing my flesh colored dildo and commencing to give it some special oral attention.After it was nice and wet I laid back,legs and shoes in full view and slid it into my wetness and had my first orgasm of the day.It was extra special bcs my boyfriend was actually here watching me, hed come over for a visit but I had not logged out yet when I had the request for this show. My cambuddy left right as I orgasmed and my bf was gonna ask me sumthin about the show, I held up one finger toldhim to hold on while my other hand ws on my clit helping me to have yet another orgasm, do I love my multiples or wht LOL
I had a few other short ones here and there but apparently they werent tht memorable :S Its been pretty slow due to the holidays and Im hoping it picks up soon or Im going to be in lotsa trouble.Okie dokie Im off to finish my morning duties and then get logged in to play.

Mornin rudies
9:36AM on December 18, 2008

Mornin all, yes Im up early as hell LOL Im not sure why I keep on waking up early but I do tend to get lots more done this way, but sometimes need a nappers in the eve hehe.I didnt do much yesterday but for some reason it sure felt like it by the end of the day.I managed to grocery shop for a few things,get some camming done and hang out with friends.
I was a lucky cam girl last night. I had been wishing for another visit from one of my favorit cam buddies SeamsLover. He enjoys vintage stockings and garters, and leg teases which is also very high on my enjoyable things to do list :P Today he wasnt interested in seeing me in a pair of stockings that he purchased for me, instead he was loving the tight white mini dress I was wearing and he asked me to cross and uncross my legs.Taunting him with my thick brown thighs.He came when I showed him my ass peeking out from underneath my dress in doggy position and wiggled a bit :P He is always soo much fun and so poilite its always a joy to see his name pop up in my chat room it makes me smile ang giggle a lil.
After we played I had a few more fun times with at least 2 orgasms and then I had to log out so my friend could fix my laptop. It took her a few hours but we came out victorious I can finally burn dvds once again WHOO HOO lol I was really stressing out about that.
My plans for the day include filming a dvd for an order, its an up skirt panty tease so I m going to love making that one and I will be uploading to my members area on my site as well for all my panty lovers,I will also be logging in for camshows, Im not sure yet where I will be camming but by now u know how to find me right :P hehe Ok Im off to chat a bit in my voyeur house chat room while having my tea see u soon. Kisses Muah

wht Im up to today
3:47PM on December 08, 2008

Ive been playing hookey so much with pvt shows that I have had to spend the past few days logged in all day, well 8 hours LOL feels like a long time when u have to amuse yourself while sitting in one spot for most of the day. I try going into my sponsor house chat but tht usually ends up not going so well bcs so many seem to be unable to comprehend manners, respect and wht the fuck voyeur cams means LOL but I do meet lotsa newbies in there and I have fun for the most part.
Im logged into the pvt lobby of  few of my camsites right now waiting for a few horny playmates to come my way. I am actually lil bit horny today myself. I had some yummy nookie time last night and have been thinkin about it all day so Ive stayed in a constant state of desire. Ive already asked him if he would like to come over again this eve bcs I need some more of that LOL
I do have a group show at 7pm (FREE thanks to SExSEARCHso I cant decide if I should have him come over before or after it hehe I dont want to be worn out for him nd I can always squeeze one off :P yep gonna text him right now :P

I just had to share
12:16PM on December 08, 2008

Last night I had some of the yummiest sex ever,and never before would I have imagined feeling tht way with a biological man. Ive had several male lovers in the past and they have never been able to satisfy me.I finally found one tht understands the act of foreplay and ensuring your woman is satisfied. When you consider it, as a man ure going to get off anyway LOL so why not give your woman the same pleasure??? He is good at holding off until he has adequately turned my entire body on before even attempting to penetrate me, and once we have reached the point he again puts him self aside and holds back to allow me to do wht brings me to orgasm and in turn after I have had mine its all about him and I do whatever it takes to make him cum as hard as I just have. Ive been a few new experiences for him and tht is really awesome. Among them is using my vibrator while he is inside me. As a cammodel I realized a long time ago how good it feels to have a hard cock inside you while tht vibe is right on ur clit. Its fucking blissful,honestly LOL for him it made my pussy soo much tighter around him and another bonus, IT MADE MY PUSSY VIBRATE LOL who woulda thought?? so he was totally into tht hehehe

Over the weekend his daughter was visiting so we didnt have any alone time. Id gone over to watch movies with them on Sat and while we were sitting on the couch together I leaned over and whispered," so um tomorrow ,we're gonna have a lil, u know" LOL I was trying to be a bit more lady like bcs most of the time I say stuff like"So, u wann do it or what?",or "Hey I need some" LOL He knew exactly wht I was talkin about though and nodded an adamant yes :P He sent me a text earlier in the day on Sunday tht said"Ive been thinking about you all day, and now I have blueballs" I giggled bcs I had been having similair thoughts about him and told him so. I'd put our liason until later bcs I despertately needed to work that afternoon and we were both dying bcs of it. When we talked on the phone he asked me to save some for him as he knew I was busy doing pvt shows all day. I promised I would. :) When he came over I was actually sitll camming and was in the middle of a private show when he walked in the door.It was a little weirdo to have him come in while my legs up in the air,vibe on my clit masturbating for some stranger on the net, but he just smiled and I tried not to be nervous that he was watching me. He jumped into the shower while I finished up my last show of the night and I was next in the warm soapy box. Felt soo good to have the hot water caressing my body, felt even better to know wht awaited me when I stepped out. Hed brought me my fav beer,and one of my fav naughty treats and I indulged in a cold beverage while we snuggled on the couch. His hand rested on my leg and soon began to travel the length of my thigh. His hands are much larger than the dainty female hands Im so used to and the weight of them feels good along with the warmth as he rubs me. Soon our lips meet, and can I just say I love his fuckin lips LOL they are so full and soft mmmmmm, and before long hes nibbling on my weak spot. My ears and neck are soo sensitive its ridiculous I swear I have body orgasms when its done in just the right way and he has it down pat LOL My pants are soaking wet, I wasnt wearing any undies so my juices were soaking right through the crotch of my satin pj bottoms. His hand finds my wetness and he rubs my swollen clit thru my pants slowly as I wiggle up to him. My pants slip from my body. Warm lips and tongue are soon wrapped around my clit and I moan in pleasure as he finds my rhythm it was fuckin amazing. He sucked and twirled my clit until Id cum twice and my pussy had made a puddle from all the wetness pouring forth. I couldnt take any more and thats when he slid inside me. His cock is the perfect size for my pussy ,it totally fills me without being too large and its perfect for when I want to be fucked hard. He doesnt have to worry bout hurting me and he can fully let go and just FUCK :P But he starts of slow knowing my body is stil really sensitive right now and he just pushes into me further,pushing againsnt my gspot as he does so and this sends me into another intense shudder. It feels soo damn good as he begins to stroke my juicy pussy.I had no need to use my vibe tonight bcs he was inducing gspot yummies nonstop I just laid back and enjoyed how good he was making me feel,moving with him pulling him closer. After we were spent we were both on tht high you find when u have just had some fuckin awesomely amazing sex. We couldnt stop touching each other after, basking in one anothers energy.*SIGH* it was yummy.

I sent him a good morning text saying "I enjoyed you last night, thank you for the gud fuck" and giggled bcs I knew he would read while at work and it would put a smile on his face. We hve plans for another evening together, I think we are craving eachother again. I know tht was my intention when inviting him over again tonight LOL Ive gotten myself all wet again while telling you all about it, I know Im gonna tear him apart tonight :P Mmmmm I should turn on my house cams this time and let all my Rudie voyeurs watch us. :P

Grrr I hate technology
3:08PM on December 04, 2008

My laptop has caught a bug, its been acting really crazy lately and is getting really unreliable. Its been doing the blue screen shut down thing so Ive been running my spyware removal thingy over and over nd it just keeps on finding stuff so Im not sure if Im gonna be able to salvage it. I really hate tht part of the internet tht theres so much bullshit out there tht can damage your computer just from being on the net. My desktop wont be able to handle the load of camshows Im sure as it was having trouble streaming all cams at the same time so not sure wht Im gonn a work out but I have to come up with sumthin soon :P
Ive not been able to have my house cams on for any amount of time thus far but hopefully it will be alright. Ive removed a lot of stuff cleared some room on hardrive and am still running spyware program so wish me luck hehe. I apologize for not being able to be on as much as Im supposed to but Im sure u all know how fragile a laptop can be. Pc permitting I will be doing group show today at 4pm which is  free one thanks to SexSearch.com  and another show with my lover tonight at 8pm on our page rude.com/forbiddenlust ; Hope to see all of u then dont forget send me good energy and good pc wishes hehe kisses A13

Whts goin on with me
11:06AM on November 19, 2008

This week has flown by so fast for me. I got lotsa rest lastnight,as u kow if u were watching me LOL Ive been haivng issues with my eyes as a response to old contacts so thats why Ive been in my glasses for so long. Its amazing how many silly boys have come into my pvt lobby saying I should take them off, or Im sexier without them. Finally I had to let loose on one of them and explain they are nto a damn fashion statement,I need them in order to read their stupid ass comments :P LOL Seems like the intelligence level on the net has decreased even more, since when are glasses no longer used as a visual aid device LOL  I didnt spend any time on my cam doing pvts last night and instead took care of some things on my site,and took stock of some of some of the things I need to take care of for the rest of the month oooo xmas is coming eeeew LOL I hate the holidays and will even more this year bcs its been forever since Ive gotten to go holme and see my family.Eventually Ill have enuff saved up for a ticket.
  Im going to be ready for playtime around 2pm ESt and on throughout the day. While in my pvt lobby here, chances are I will be turning off the main lobby stream as Im just not in the mood to deal with those who cant seem to grasp the notion tht they need to purchase a pvt session before attempting to place demands and even when ure paying me u still need to conduct urself like a polite adult. Now there are some ladies that will allow you to act like a jackass but not me LOL So if u pop into my pvt lobby and dont see, doesnt mean im not there Ive jsut grown tired of being TOLD to "show my tits" show my pussy etc. All of my toys are available in a gallery on my rudepage pls ask me via chat if there is a particular one u would like to see me playing with during ur session. 
   Ok lets see other new stuff.........the boy and I are still together LOL we are looking into cameras so we can finally get some content uploaded for you all to enjoy.

Hell has Frozen Over
2:19PM on October 25, 2008

I have news for all my admirers,buddies and fans that I have made in my year here on Rude. Some of u will be estactic, some jealous and maybe even a few tht are angry but here goes LOL There is a man in my life as of two weeks ago. Ive always answered the question "Are you a lesbian" with the following response "I am technically bi, with a preference for women. If I find a man that intrigues me intellectually,physically, and spiritually then I will not hesitate to date him, however, it has been 5-6 yrs since I have encountered a man to do so" 

A few months ago I met a gentleman and he is truely that in every sense of the word "so far" hehe, at one of my fav hangouts. I was there with my girlie and a  mutual friend explained to him tht I was in fact out with her so he backed off. A few weeks ago we all met up down town and had a great time at the block party,it was later this evening that I discovered he was in fact interested in me and strangely enuff I was in him as well. I asked him out to dinner and thts where it started LOL We have been spending time together since that evening and I enjoy his company greatly. I was very impressed by the way he conducted hisself around me. Even if he thought I was hot, and wanted to fuck me it never came out of his mouth. He treated me with the utmost respect, it felt like I was hanging out with an old friend with the exception I thought he was extremely Hot :P. We have great communication and even better Sex!!! He is very giving in tht department,more concerned about giving me pleasure vs just being about himself and that in turn makes me want to please him even more.He understands that I prefer women, and that I will always want to have a woman in my life. He understands wht I do for a living does not define me as a person and he has expressed interest in persuing a project with me which is sooo fuckin exciting. Those of u that have been begging to see me with a man need to bookmark the page   www.rude.com/forbiddenlust  as that is our page. We have not had the chance to shoot any content yet but it will be coming soon. He is a caucasion male, half indian very handsome with the perfect package for me so I think u will enjoy watching us together. If you were spying on me last week you might have already gotten a peek at him. Alrighty Im on my way to get my day started I just wanted to let u all know wht was going on with the strange man wandering round my house LOL have a great weekend all

Its almost time to announce the raffle winner
11:16AM on October 03, 2008

Ive had soo much fun having a raffle with my show goers, I never imagined everyone would be soo into it and make it tht much more exciting. AFter each show I wrote down the names of my show tippers and dropped them into my silver box, which has to be upgraged bcs soo many decided to become a part.If you have meet the eligibility requirements u wont want to miss the free group show on Oct 4 at 4pm EST where I will be announcing the winners to my raffle.There will be one more chance to become entered before the winner will be drawn and  Of course we will have yummy playtime at some point :)  I cant wait to pull the winner of the webcam show out of the box, and to announce the one who loves me the most and will be winning the membership to my website for a month.Ive put the show on the schedule and will be taping the winner announcement and posting on my page just in case someone cant make it to the show.
     I also uploaded a new vid last night into my Flix area, I was clearing out my desktop and found a vid recorded during a show where we were concentrating on watching my pussy convulse as I orgasm. We zoomed in on my luscious pink parts and watched as my vibrator assulted my clit to the point of a screaming orgasm make sure u check it out if u enjoy seeing a pretty pussy pulse in pleasure.

Cute new pics and a Raffle
9:30PM on September 29, 2008

I snapped a few shots the other day before one of my group shows and I really liked how some came out so I posted them on my page. I had alot of trouble when I initially tried uploading them so for awhile I only had one to view, was soo relieved when I was able to get them up. Thought about sending out a new shout out for all of those whod seen just the one to inform them more were up but figured my die hard fans will come check my page soon anyways so :P LOL I also just started a new raffle  tht will end October 4th and the first chance for an entry is tomorrow at 4pm Est. Im having a raffle for all of my life group show tippers.  Each tip is an entry. The winner of the raffle will win a 15 min masturbation session with yours truely and the member tht tips me the most during tht time period will win a 30 day membership to my website Mistressofmasturbation.com. I wil take 10 mins at the end of each show to write the names of all tippers on paper and drop into the box. I will host a special show on the 4th to pick the winners. If you have any suggestions for future prizes pls feel free to send my way and make sure u are at all of myupcoming group shows that are free for your enjoyment thanks to sexsearch.com. If u have any quetstions concening the raffle just drop me a note or catch me in myhouse chat. Kisses all have a great week and I hope to see u soon. Aricellis

Come chat with me
2:48AM on September 05, 2008

Ive added a new show to the schedule for Friday eves at 6 pm.Whenever Im logged into the pvt show area I have lots of visitors just wanting to stop by to say hello , or to ask me questions about me and whts going on. Its very had to concentrate on regular chat while working, and yes camming is working. It seems many think we are bored or lonely while in the pvt lobby while in actuality we take the down time when we have low traffic to do things to promote ourselves and bring in sales etc. So many take it personally when they dont realize that offering cam shows is indeed a job, and most of u would be annoyed if u were tyring to earn a living and someone came by just for a chat, interrupting u and therefore impeding your ability to earn a living. So I ve decided to setup an hour a week for u all to come by and just chat with me. Im in my house chat lots for this purpose but this way u will get to hear my voice while we converse. Show time is at 6pm ESt and this will be a free gathering thanx to Sex Search my wonderful sponsor. So if u are free I would love the chance to get to know u better while giving u the oppurtunity to do the same.

Whts goin on
11:20AM on August 30, 2008

Boy oh boy has this week flown by. Im still in Tampa staying with my Mistress/Lover but we have not had much time to spend together. During the beginning of the week she had to work early the next morning so she had to be in bed early, and then when she had spare time I was busy online as its near the end of my payperiod and have been a bit behind on the rent check. We were going to make time Friday night but she had a migraine coming on an had to take her meds. With them its a catch 22 bcs the pills totally knock her out so its either be in bed all day or have severe pain. Were not sure how things are gonna go today we had originally planned on going out for a few drinks and to socialize with the swinger community here in Tampa so we will just have to wait and see.
I had a wonderful day camming yesterday. I started out spending time in my house chat to have companywhile I was waiting on shows but the mood in there was off. Lots of chatters were feeling the need to be obnoxious or rude the entire time so I didnt feel like being in the atmosphere. I wish those tht stop by knew how to conduct themselves but alas I cant change the cyber world LOL I m not sure whts so hard to comprehend about how the site works. There is something for everyone and slavery was over a hell of a long time ago so it totally baffles me when these people enter our hosues or shows and try to tell us wht to do. As if we were just sitting there waiting for them to come in and order us around. Cause geesh without some dude with a hardon telling me to rub my tits I dont know how to function LOL Geesh Ok oh well nuff ranting for today. Im having my mornin coffee and Im going to log in for a lil bit so I can stay on top of finances to continue having playtime. This  payperiod I only had to log on when I was truely in the mood to play and tht totally makes the difference.

Back in the Saddle
2:49PM on August 22, 2008

Im feeling soo much better today.Feels good to be back. My day has been great so far, I checked mail while waiting for my coffee to brew and today my new body jewelry came (new rhinestone for my tragus,new hood ring,and tongue ring made of rainbow moonstone) and my new viberator WHOOHOO I was soo excited. I popped in the batteries right away to be sure it works. Mmmm I cant wait to try it out Im going to log in for cam sessions soon after I finish this. I put in all of my jewelry and feels soo good to have new decoration. Ive been needing a new tragus one for a long time and I love the delicate little stone. Id also missed the feeling of a hood ring. After I put in the new ring I remembered how awesome it feels to feel the little weight dangling there. I still need a few more pieces but soon I will have the others. Another good note, I will be turning house cams back on for you all today. I just couldnt bear to have them on while I was under the weather. Ok Im off to seek out horny boys tht wanna play. Talk to ya laters Muah

Happy Humpday
4:04AM on August 20, 2008

I ve been in bed for the past day and a half and hope to be able to get up and about today.This is the only time I hate being a woman if u catch my drift LOL. I had to cancel all of my shows for Tues as well as Wed and havnt been in the mood to have cams on. Sorry everyone I will try to get cams back up today. I try to use my down time to think up new ideas,work on my site and stuff like tht, and was thinking of having a wake up show,perhaps a phone w/cam one where you could call me during a group masturbation show and pic toy and have lil one on one time with me, so I will be posting a new poll and u have to vote so I know wht u guys wanna see. I also have some wonderful ideas for pics and videos, now I just have to find time and space LOL my apt is tiny as hell and I havnt had any luck finding any new ones so things are going to get a bit interesting hehe :)

wed 8.13.08
3:15PM on August 13, 2008

I was such a lazy butt yesterday hehe, I was supposed to cam a bit inbetween group shows but decided I wasnt really feelilng up to it. I was worn out after each show so tht didnt leave me much steam :) First show of the day I had two yummy orgasms, one with just my vibe to get my pussy dripping wet, and the second I used my smooth glass rod with my vibe to give me double the pleasure and a very loud O, even though iambeachy issued a speaker warning some were either too busy strokin to take note or they didnt believe her hehe boy were they in for a surprise. I hold nothing back when I cum, (unless I hear my neighbor below LOL) it feels soo good to have ht few seconds of carnal primal pleasure tht I enjoy it with my entire body. I came soo hard I produced creamy pussy juices,normally I run clear but when my orgasms are really intense Ive noticed its more of a milky white whic lots of my viewers Loved it seems a creamy pussy is a good pussy LOL .
Later on in the eve for my 7pm show on Tues I just played with my vibe as it always seems to make me drip lots and lots. Today I have a show at 6 and Im hoping to have as much fun as I did yesterday. I had a few bad apples but overall had a wonderful show Tues and Im expecting a good day today as well. The moderators here on Rude are excellent at making sure all host and hostess are treated with the respect they deserve. Luv u guys :) Okay am off to get myself motivated for the day Ive lots of horny fantasies to fulfill hehe talk to ya soon.

Free Group Show Today
2:45PM on August 12, 2008

I wasnt able to host last week due to internet issues but I have successfully switched providers and things are back on track and I will be live today at 4pm EST as well as at 7pm for Masturbate with me time.These group shows are free thanks to SexSearch. com so please make sure u take time to click their banners when u join me today for playtime to keep my shows and live house cams free for your pleasure. I know how much u love watching me masturbate so do ur part to make sure I stick around nice and FREE for u :P Ive been pretty relaxed so am expecting everything to go very well today lets hope so hehe. Hope to see u all this eve.

Change of scenery
1:40PM on August 07, 2008

I am very happy to be able to announce that I can now offer u all a change of scenery. My good friend was up until 4 am rebuilding my pc tower,(which still needs a bit of work before I can go 24/7) and she also fixed my laptop so tht it now will read the wireless signal so I am no longer confined to my bedroom Yaaay Im soo excited. I can now carry my laptop all over the house so tht opens a few more avenues for show ideas and its also just cool tht u can now see more of my home. I have cams set up in the living room for today and am thinking of camming from here for the day as well, cant beat the feelings of liberation :):) cant beat the feeling of having cable either LOL Ive gone almost a full year without it. When it was first disconnected I figured Id get it turned back on immediately and then funds became tight so it was more of a luxery than a necessity. So I learned alot about myself and am proud tht I gave myself time to get more stable financially before taking on more financial responsibilities. I found new ways to entertain myself and alot of great places online to watch movies and all the shows tht I missed so before long all I missed from the cable experience was having more channels to flip through LOL but I cant tell u how happy I am to have my Sci-fi channel back have been watching every since it was turned on hehe. Ok gotta finish my daily duties online, will be scheduling two shows before this weekend to make up for being gone on Tues and WEd. during the internet exchange which Im soo hoping takes care of all my connection issues cross ur fingers for me :) Take care